Boldly striving to overcome the darkness both in this world and within yourself, you are righteously devoted to forging your own destiny.
"It's your choice, but I warn you not to underestimate my powers".
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
Boldly striving to overcome the darkness both in this world and within yourself, you are righteously devoted to forging your own destiny.
"It's your choice, but I warn you not to underestimate my powers".
Friday, June 25, 2004
Well my counselling with job has ended for his relationship with Dallas. It's over between them. At least that is what he says. He broke up with her because she wouldn't make a decision. She wouldn't say that she wanted him in her life or not. It was killing him. So he told her that he couldn't take it. So now he has taken to staying down stairs by himself to get over what she has, well he has done.
So hopefully this is all of her... Of course he spent a lot of money on her and now has nothing to show for it. He would say he had to find out.
So hopefully this is all of her... Of course he spent a lot of money on her and now has nothing to show for it. He would say he had to find out.
Thursday, June 24, 2004
After Tom and I had a big fight where he told me to shut up because he didn't like what I said. I told him of course he had no right to tell me to shut up and to stop doing it. He said he would say if he wanted so I talked right over him and said you don't have that right.
So then we had a fight by email. LOL I may post those I'll have to read them to make sure there isn't anything too bad in them.
So he told me he was going to move out. So instead of finishing out the basement for like an in-law suite he is just going to move somewhere else. That will be a good thing. Then I don't have to worry about him being here. I don't have to worry if he is feeling upset about Dallas and how that is going to affect us. He has always taken his frustrations out of us. He will yell at us over nothing because he is upset about something else.
Once he is gone then I'll start painting the inside like I want. I know I only have two years here but at least I can enjoy it while I'm here.
So then we had a fight by email. LOL I may post those I'll have to read them to make sure there isn't anything too bad in them.
So he told me he was going to move out. So instead of finishing out the basement for like an in-law suite he is just going to move somewhere else. That will be a good thing. Then I don't have to worry about him being here. I don't have to worry if he is feeling upset about Dallas and how that is going to affect us. He has always taken his frustrations out of us. He will yell at us over nothing because he is upset about something else.
Once he is gone then I'll start painting the inside like I want. I know I only have two years here but at least I can enjoy it while I'm here.
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
I think I'm going to charge Tom for Counseling. LOL Today was his post op appointment. He asked me to drive because we weren't sure if they were going to dialate his eyes or not. He said I'll trade you lunch if you drive me. I said I don't want lunch. That kind of shocked him. lol
Anyway we were waiting for them to call him into a room and he started talking about Dallas. She had said she sent him a long email and it didn't go for some reason. Not sure why she didn't resend it but that's her problem. So Tom text her saying good or bad. So she called. She said she is taking the time he offered her to think about what she wants. LOL So he was telling me about that. Then we get in the exam room and while we are waiting for the doctor Tom starts talking about her yet again!
It seems that she can't make up her mind. Tom on the other hand is one of those people that has to have control. LOL So this is driving him nuts. I tried to tell him she may be trying to let him down easy. He of course blew that right off. I said I didn't say she was just said maybe. So he went on and on how he couldn't understand why she couldn't make up her mind.. She was either interested or not. It is that simple.
Personally I think she is got another guy on the line again. I wouldn't tell Tom that cause he'd never believe it. LOL Anyway he went on and on about this. One hint he told me was that she kept saying you can't make me make a decision, you can't make me.... So I know it's the control thing that is driving her crazy. LOL
Anyway, that's the latest Dallas update.
Anyway we were waiting for them to call him into a room and he started talking about Dallas. She had said she sent him a long email and it didn't go for some reason. Not sure why she didn't resend it but that's her problem. So Tom text her saying good or bad. So she called. She said she is taking the time he offered her to think about what she wants. LOL So he was telling me about that. Then we get in the exam room and while we are waiting for the doctor Tom starts talking about her yet again!
It seems that she can't make up her mind. Tom on the other hand is one of those people that has to have control. LOL So this is driving him nuts. I tried to tell him she may be trying to let him down easy. He of course blew that right off. I said I didn't say she was just said maybe. So he went on and on how he couldn't understand why she couldn't make up her mind.. She was either interested or not. It is that simple.
Personally I think she is got another guy on the line again. I wouldn't tell Tom that cause he'd never believe it. LOL Anyway he went on and on about this. One hint he told me was that she kept saying you can't make me make a decision, you can't make me.... So I know it's the control thing that is driving her crazy. LOL
Anyway, that's the latest Dallas update.
All About the Sun Sign Cancer
by Astrology.com
Now since Cancer is my sun sign I thought I'd post this information here.
All About Cancer
Cancer, you very much resemble your symbolic Crab (metaphorically speaking, of course!). You tend to present a harder demeanor to the rest of the world, and you don't let the real you come to the surface. But Cancers are deeply sensitive and vulnerable on the inside -- that protective shell of yours is crucial for your sanity!
Because of this polarity, Cancer has a reputation as the moodiest sign of the Zodiac (And who wouldn't be, when you're battling to protect yourself from emotional harm!). But there's so much more to this unpredictable sign. Cancers can be the most gentle, caring people in the world. You have a motherly quality about you, and you love to nurture and ensure that everyone is cared for properly. But beware insulting a Cancer or loved one -- the Crab's bite can sting!
Cancers are also known for having an excellent memory. Though a slight might eventually be forgiven, it will never be forgotten. But then, Cancer, you never forget a kindness either. And you're more than happy to repay someone with generosity of your own -- probably with food, as Crabs love everything to do with food from cooking it to serving it to eating it! This goes right along with your homebody tendencies. Cancers like anything having to do with the home, and you feel most secure and comfortable when you're settled somewhere. A cozy place to live is sure to bring out your best side, and tone down some of those emotional extremes.
On the romantic side of things, you can be a shy, sensitive soul with a romantic but easily bruised heart. Cancers desire big, romantic love, but you may avoid putting yourself out there for fear of getting hurt. So rather than make the first move, you seem to wait for your Prince or Princess Charming to come along and sweep you off to happily ever after. But don't forget the old saying that it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. Don't be afraid to start taking some chances. And who knows -- maybe your Prince or Princess is waiting for you to come to the rescue!
To learn more about Cancer, go here:
http://www.astrology.com/nl/june/highlights/june5.html
by Astrology.com
Now since Cancer is my sun sign I thought I'd post this information here.
All About Cancer
Cancer, you very much resemble your symbolic Crab (metaphorically speaking, of course!). You tend to present a harder demeanor to the rest of the world, and you don't let the real you come to the surface. But Cancers are deeply sensitive and vulnerable on the inside -- that protective shell of yours is crucial for your sanity!
Because of this polarity, Cancer has a reputation as the moodiest sign of the Zodiac (And who wouldn't be, when you're battling to protect yourself from emotional harm!). But there's so much more to this unpredictable sign. Cancers can be the most gentle, caring people in the world. You have a motherly quality about you, and you love to nurture and ensure that everyone is cared for properly. But beware insulting a Cancer or loved one -- the Crab's bite can sting!
Cancers are also known for having an excellent memory. Though a slight might eventually be forgiven, it will never be forgotten. But then, Cancer, you never forget a kindness either. And you're more than happy to repay someone with generosity of your own -- probably with food, as Crabs love everything to do with food from cooking it to serving it to eating it! This goes right along with your homebody tendencies. Cancers like anything having to do with the home, and you feel most secure and comfortable when you're settled somewhere. A cozy place to live is sure to bring out your best side, and tone down some of those emotional extremes.
On the romantic side of things, you can be a shy, sensitive soul with a romantic but easily bruised heart. Cancers desire big, romantic love, but you may avoid putting yourself out there for fear of getting hurt. So rather than make the first move, you seem to wait for your Prince or Princess Charming to come along and sweep you off to happily ever after. But don't forget the old saying that it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. Don't be afraid to start taking some chances. And who knows -- maybe your Prince or Princess is waiting for you to come to the rescue!
To learn more about Cancer, go here:
http://www.astrology.com/nl/june/highlights/june5.html
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Ok so here is how my day went...
I slept horrible cause I think I was probably a bit worried about going back to the doctor today plus Tom was freaked out about his surgery and I think I was picking up his worry.
So I get up and get in the shower and make sure I shave my legs... Well... good thing I did... They did an internal and external ultrasound. So I find out the I've got one fibroid tumor that is as big as the uterus is suppose to be. I think they counted 5 total. After I was ultrasounded I was hurting from the pressing... So the doctor gave me some options....
One: To grin and bare it. When I do go through menopause the tumors will stop causing any problems and go away.
Two: Hysterectomy, then the fibroids will be gone and so will my uterus...
Which I don't really need anymore...
Three: Just have the tumors removed which will come back anyway before menopause.
Four: Some kind of things they basically inject into the tumors but there is no guarantees that will do much of anything.
Five: Take birth control pills which should help some and wait for menopause...
I think all these options suck... but what ya going to do?
THEN! Tom had his eye surgery and Matt (the oldest son) had to go pick him up from surgery. They wouldn't let Michael drive him home. I was still at the doctors office and he hadn't told me what the ultrasounds showed. So Matt went and picked him up. On my way home I called Gay (my sis) to tell her what the doctor said. So she said let's have lunch. So we did... As I was waiting on her to get to where we were going to eat Tom called. He said you need to hurry up and come back to the house to put eye drops in my eyes. Don't you have to wonder why he thinks I'm responsible for putting drops in his eyes? Why I need to hurry back? I showed up around 4:00 and yeah I put the drops in but it's because I am worried the boys may hurt his surgery... Just pisses me off he thinks that he can order me around like that.
I laughingly made a comment that he owed something like 3900 billion dollars... It's a joke I've always said... He said I've been more than generous enough. He is such an ass. I think it's time to put cayenne pepper in my shoe to get him to move the hell out. I'm tired of that shit.
I slept horrible cause I think I was probably a bit worried about going back to the doctor today plus Tom was freaked out about his surgery and I think I was picking up his worry.
So I get up and get in the shower and make sure I shave my legs... Well... good thing I did... They did an internal and external ultrasound. So I find out the I've got one fibroid tumor that is as big as the uterus is suppose to be. I think they counted 5 total. After I was ultrasounded I was hurting from the pressing... So the doctor gave me some options....
One: To grin and bare it. When I do go through menopause the tumors will stop causing any problems and go away.
Two: Hysterectomy, then the fibroids will be gone and so will my uterus...
Which I don't really need anymore...
Three: Just have the tumors removed which will come back anyway before menopause.
Four: Some kind of things they basically inject into the tumors but there is no guarantees that will do much of anything.
Five: Take birth control pills which should help some and wait for menopause...
I think all these options suck... but what ya going to do?
THEN! Tom had his eye surgery and Matt (the oldest son) had to go pick him up from surgery. They wouldn't let Michael drive him home. I was still at the doctors office and he hadn't told me what the ultrasounds showed. So Matt went and picked him up. On my way home I called Gay (my sis) to tell her what the doctor said. So she said let's have lunch. So we did... As I was waiting on her to get to where we were going to eat Tom called. He said you need to hurry up and come back to the house to put eye drops in my eyes. Don't you have to wonder why he thinks I'm responsible for putting drops in his eyes? Why I need to hurry back? I showed up around 4:00 and yeah I put the drops in but it's because I am worried the boys may hurt his surgery... Just pisses me off he thinks that he can order me around like that.
I laughingly made a comment that he owed something like 3900 billion dollars... It's a joke I've always said... He said I've been more than generous enough. He is such an ass. I think it's time to put cayenne pepper in my shoe to get him to move the hell out. I'm tired of that shit.
Monday, June 21, 2004
Fucked up Lunch
Well, I think today was to help me decide somethings. One being I'm not having lunch with Tom anymore. Two I'm not being supportive anymore. I'm not going to tell him that his eye surgery is going to be ok. I'm not going to tell him everything is going to be alright. Cause I don't care anymore.
Here is what happened. He asked me if I wanted to have lunch with him and we would go by the doctors office and give them their money for his eye surgery. I said sure. So we get in the car and somehow wind up talking about sex. This lead to Dallas. He told me they were in a stage. So this conversation goes on for maybe 20 minutes. Mostly him venting. I offer good advice when I could and tried to be supportive. So he pays the doctor and we head to lunch. We get there and are having a conversation and I can feel him getting emotional about it. Of course we are still talking about Dallas. Well he tells me that when he went to Jacksonville that Dallas had made a comment to one of his friends she was coming down to reel him in that he was getting too far a field. This again is after she tells him she needs time. Well being my subtle self I said "oh so she was being like a dog and had to come piss on you to mark you". He took offense and said I needed to use a better analogy. I said why that's the way you talk to me. So he continued the same thing about her reeling him in yet keeping him at a distance. I said, "Here let me raise my leg a little higher". Well that rightly pissed him off so he quite talking to me. He is very mature you know. So we sat there eating in silence when it became too much for him. He knows I'm right and it pisses him right off. I know she is only after his money and he is too stupid to see it or he doesn't want to believe it. Anyway I'm done. When he falls in his own shit he can eat it too.
I don't care anymore and that little cord I had attached has been cut. Let him deal with life without a buffer. Let him figure out what he lost as a friend.
Well, I think today was to help me decide somethings. One being I'm not having lunch with Tom anymore. Two I'm not being supportive anymore. I'm not going to tell him that his eye surgery is going to be ok. I'm not going to tell him everything is going to be alright. Cause I don't care anymore.
Here is what happened. He asked me if I wanted to have lunch with him and we would go by the doctors office and give them their money for his eye surgery. I said sure. So we get in the car and somehow wind up talking about sex. This lead to Dallas. He told me they were in a stage. So this conversation goes on for maybe 20 minutes. Mostly him venting. I offer good advice when I could and tried to be supportive. So he pays the doctor and we head to lunch. We get there and are having a conversation and I can feel him getting emotional about it. Of course we are still talking about Dallas. Well he tells me that when he went to Jacksonville that Dallas had made a comment to one of his friends she was coming down to reel him in that he was getting too far a field. This again is after she tells him she needs time. Well being my subtle self I said "oh so she was being like a dog and had to come piss on you to mark you". He took offense and said I needed to use a better analogy. I said why that's the way you talk to me. So he continued the same thing about her reeling him in yet keeping him at a distance. I said, "Here let me raise my leg a little higher". Well that rightly pissed him off so he quite talking to me. He is very mature you know. So we sat there eating in silence when it became too much for him. He knows I'm right and it pisses him right off. I know she is only after his money and he is too stupid to see it or he doesn't want to believe it. Anyway I'm done. When he falls in his own shit he can eat it too.
I don't care anymore and that little cord I had attached has been cut. Let him deal with life without a buffer. Let him figure out what he lost as a friend.
Sunday, June 20, 2004
Today I went up to see my Dad for Father's Day. He was having a good day and didn't seem to have any problems hearing anyone. Plus he is starting to have some problems with memory and he is getting pretty testy. However since today was all about him he was doing great. :-)
Michael didn't want to drive up there but I can't blame him it's about 1 hour and 20 to 30 minutes. He just isn't use to driving that long. Me however am but still I hate the drive. LOL Funny thing was Michael was asleep in the car after only being on the road for 20 minutes. LOL When he was a baby and had trouble sleeping we would take him for a ride and it never felled to make him sleepy. *grins* It still works and we don't want that to happen now.
My dad was so sweet today... I gave him money because he always is looking to buy something plus he is so hard to buy for. He asked me if I needed the money. He was going to give it back to me. *smiles* I thought that was incredibly sweet of him.
Now my mom and I had a talk and let me say my dad must really be pushing her buttons. She told me that after one incident that she told him if he didn't behave while they were in the car she wasn't driving him anywhere else. Then there was another thing he did and she told him if he wasn't careful she would walk out the door and never come back. Now THAT worried me. My mom is one of the most easy going people you could every know. When she does get upset, which happens about oh every 30 years.
Michael didn't want to drive up there but I can't blame him it's about 1 hour and 20 to 30 minutes. He just isn't use to driving that long. Me however am but still I hate the drive. LOL Funny thing was Michael was asleep in the car after only being on the road for 20 minutes. LOL When he was a baby and had trouble sleeping we would take him for a ride and it never felled to make him sleepy. *grins* It still works and we don't want that to happen now.
My dad was so sweet today... I gave him money because he always is looking to buy something plus he is so hard to buy for. He asked me if I needed the money. He was going to give it back to me. *smiles* I thought that was incredibly sweet of him.
Now my mom and I had a talk and let me say my dad must really be pushing her buttons. She told me that after one incident that she told him if he didn't behave while they were in the car she wasn't driving him anywhere else. Then there was another thing he did and she told him if he wasn't careful she would walk out the door and never come back. Now THAT worried me. My mom is one of the most easy going people you could every know. When she does get upset, which happens about oh every 30 years.
Saturday, June 19, 2004
I have a schedule! :-o! *giggles*
Friday, July 30th: Lands at Birmingham Airport and is picked up by Jamie (Georgia, look for a wench dressed in pink, bouncing a lot) at around 8am
Saturday, July 31st:
Sunday, August 1st:
Monday, August 2nd:
Tuesday, August 3rd: Moot! Evening at the New Inn, Salop Street, Wolverhampton
Wednesday, August 4th: Evening - drive down to Glastonbury and camp overnight there
Thursday, August 5th: Spend entire day in Glastonbury and camp overnight there
Friday, August 6th: Back to Wolverhampton, via Avebury and Stonehenge, then celebrate the night away in Wolves
Saturday, August 7th:
Sunday, August 8th: Departs Birmingham Airport, taken by Mab
Isn't that just cool?! I am so excited... at least I know that I am going to have a lot of fun while I'm there. Even if I did nothing but get to talk with everybody I'd have a great time. :-) I'm easily amused. ;-)
Friday, July 30th: Lands at Birmingham Airport and is picked up by Jamie (Georgia, look for a wench dressed in pink, bouncing a lot) at around 8am
Saturday, July 31st:
Sunday, August 1st:
Monday, August 2nd:
Tuesday, August 3rd: Moot! Evening at the New Inn, Salop Street, Wolverhampton
Wednesday, August 4th: Evening - drive down to Glastonbury and camp overnight there
Thursday, August 5th: Spend entire day in Glastonbury and camp overnight there
Friday, August 6th: Back to Wolverhampton, via Avebury and Stonehenge, then celebrate the night away in Wolves
Saturday, August 7th:
Sunday, August 8th: Departs Birmingham Airport, taken by Mab
Isn't that just cool?! I am so excited... at least I know that I am going to have a lot of fun while I'm there. Even if I did nothing but get to talk with everybody I'd have a great time. :-) I'm easily amused. ;-)
Thursday, June 17, 2004
Enneagram
THE PEACEMAKER
Enneagram Type Nine
The Easygoing, Self-Effacing Type:
Receptive, Reassuring Agreeable, and Complacent
Basic Fear: Of loss and separation
Basic Desire: To have inner stability "peace of mind"
Enneagram Nine with an Eight-Wing: "The Referee"
Enneagram Nine with a One-Wing: "The Dreamer"
Profile Summary for the Enneagram Type Nine
Healthy: Deeply receptive, accepting, unselfconscious, emotionally stable and serene. Trusting of self and others, at ease with self and life, innocent and simple. Patient, unpretentious, good-natured, genuinely nice people. / Optimistic, reassuring, supportive: have a healing and calming influence — harmonizing groups, bringing people together: a good mediator, synthesizer, and communicator. At Their Best: Become self-possessed, feeling autonomous and fulfilled: have great equanimity and contentment because they are present to themselves. Paradoxically, at one with self, and thus able to form more profound relationships. Intensely alive, fully connected to self and others.
Average: Fear conflicts, so become self-effacing and accommodating, idealizing others and "going along" with their wishes, saying "yes" to things they do not really want to do. Fall into conventional roles and expectations. Use philosophies and stock sayings to deflect others./ Active, but disengaged, unreflective, and inattentive. Do not want to be affected, so become unresponsive and complacent, walking away from problems, and "sweeping them under the rug." Thinking becomes hazy and ruminative, mostly comforting fantasies, as they begin to "tune out" reality, becoming oblivious. Emotionally indolent, unwillingness to exert self or to focus on problems: indifference. / Begin to minimize problems, to appease others and to have "peace at any price." Stubborn, fatalistic, and resigned, as if nothing could be done to change anything. Into wishful thinking, and magical solutions. Others frustrated and angry by their procrastination and unresponsiveness.
Unhealthy: Can be highly repressed, undeveloped, and ineffectual. Feel incapable of facing problems: become obstinate, dissociating self from all conflicts. Neglectful and dangerous to others. / Wanting to block out of awareness anything that could affect, them, they dissociate so much that they eventually cannot function: numb, depersonalized. / They finally become severely disoriented and catatonic, abandoning themselves, turning into shattered shells. Multiple personalities possible. Generally corresponds to the Schizoid and Dependent personality disorders.
Key Motivations: Want to create harmony in their environment, to avoid conflicts and tension, to preserve things as they are, to resist whatever would upset or disturb them.
Examples: Abraham Lincoln, Joseph Campbell, Carl Jung, Ronald Reagan, Gerald Ford, Queen Elizabeth II, Princess Grace, Walter Cronkite, George Lucas, Walt Disney, John Kennedy, Jr., Sophia Loren, Geena Davis, Lisa Kudrow, Kevin Costner, Keanu Reeves, Woody Harrelson, Ron Howard, Matthew Broderick, Ringo Starr, Whoopi Goldberg, Janet Jackson, Nancy Kerrigan, Jim Hensen, Marc Chagall, Norman Rockwell, "Edith Bunker" (Archie Bunker), and "Marge Simpson" (The Simpsons).
THE PEACEMAKER
Enneagram Type Nine
The Easygoing, Self-Effacing Type:
Receptive, Reassuring Agreeable, and Complacent
Basic Fear: Of loss and separation
Basic Desire: To have inner stability "peace of mind"
Enneagram Nine with an Eight-Wing: "The Referee"
Enneagram Nine with a One-Wing: "The Dreamer"
Profile Summary for the Enneagram Type Nine
Healthy: Deeply receptive, accepting, unselfconscious, emotionally stable and serene. Trusting of self and others, at ease with self and life, innocent and simple. Patient, unpretentious, good-natured, genuinely nice people. / Optimistic, reassuring, supportive: have a healing and calming influence — harmonizing groups, bringing people together: a good mediator, synthesizer, and communicator. At Their Best: Become self-possessed, feeling autonomous and fulfilled: have great equanimity and contentment because they are present to themselves. Paradoxically, at one with self, and thus able to form more profound relationships. Intensely alive, fully connected to self and others.
Average: Fear conflicts, so become self-effacing and accommodating, idealizing others and "going along" with their wishes, saying "yes" to things they do not really want to do. Fall into conventional roles and expectations. Use philosophies and stock sayings to deflect others./ Active, but disengaged, unreflective, and inattentive. Do not want to be affected, so become unresponsive and complacent, walking away from problems, and "sweeping them under the rug." Thinking becomes hazy and ruminative, mostly comforting fantasies, as they begin to "tune out" reality, becoming oblivious. Emotionally indolent, unwillingness to exert self or to focus on problems: indifference. / Begin to minimize problems, to appease others and to have "peace at any price." Stubborn, fatalistic, and resigned, as if nothing could be done to change anything. Into wishful thinking, and magical solutions. Others frustrated and angry by their procrastination and unresponsiveness.
Unhealthy: Can be highly repressed, undeveloped, and ineffectual. Feel incapable of facing problems: become obstinate, dissociating self from all conflicts. Neglectful and dangerous to others. / Wanting to block out of awareness anything that could affect, them, they dissociate so much that they eventually cannot function: numb, depersonalized. / They finally become severely disoriented and catatonic, abandoning themselves, turning into shattered shells. Multiple personalities possible. Generally corresponds to the Schizoid and Dependent personality disorders.
Key Motivations: Want to create harmony in their environment, to avoid conflicts and tension, to preserve things as they are, to resist whatever would upset or disturb them.
Examples: Abraham Lincoln, Joseph Campbell, Carl Jung, Ronald Reagan, Gerald Ford, Queen Elizabeth II, Princess Grace, Walter Cronkite, George Lucas, Walt Disney, John Kennedy, Jr., Sophia Loren, Geena Davis, Lisa Kudrow, Kevin Costner, Keanu Reeves, Woody Harrelson, Ron Howard, Matthew Broderick, Ringo Starr, Whoopi Goldberg, Janet Jackson, Nancy Kerrigan, Jim Hensen, Marc Chagall, Norman Rockwell, "Edith Bunker" (Archie Bunker), and "Marge Simpson" (The Simpsons).
Yes! Another quiz!
You're Thor! Son of Odin you are affectionately
termed the Thunder god, and hence have an
affinity with electricity. You're very popular
due to your great strength and loyalty.
Which Norse God are You?
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You're Thor! Son of Odin you are affectionately
termed the Thunder god, and hence have an
affinity with electricity. You're very popular
due to your great strength and loyalty.
Which Norse God are You?
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Forgive me Blogger for I have sinned.
It has been 5 days since my last blog. :-D
Well I went to the doctor yesterday for the first time in 8 years. Everything was where it was suppose to be. I do however have fibroid tumors which apparently are very common. I have to go back in next Tuesday for an ultrasound so the doc can look at them to see how big and whatever else they look at them for.
He was really a great doctor. Very funny and I was amazed at what a gentle energy he had. He put me right at ease which is not easy considering I hate going to the doctors. LOL
Anyway, all my parts are in the place they are suppose to be and I'm healthy. This is good.
It has been 5 days since my last blog. :-D
Well I went to the doctor yesterday for the first time in 8 years. Everything was where it was suppose to be. I do however have fibroid tumors which apparently are very common. I have to go back in next Tuesday for an ultrasound so the doc can look at them to see how big and whatever else they look at them for.
He was really a great doctor. Very funny and I was amazed at what a gentle energy he had. He put me right at ease which is not easy considering I hate going to the doctors. LOL
Anyway, all my parts are in the place they are suppose to be and I'm healthy. This is good.
Friday, June 11, 2004
Well now this was a fucked up day. I was beside myself with panic. It started last night I felt some panic building but I was able to sleep. This morning some things were going through my mind and I felt it building. Then it hit full force. It was terrible. It's building again... I feel it.
It's almost like building too much energy in a circle and not releasing it or grounding. Totally freaked about it. I've opened up more and I'm just having to learn what to do about it. It will be fine. Another thing I've noticed is that I'm seeing a whole lot more movement around the house. Inside and out. I keep thinking someone is walking across my driveway. It's really annoying because I look every time. LOL
I'm off now to color my hair... I wonder what color it will be when I get out of the shower. LOL I'll let you know.
It's almost like building too much energy in a circle and not releasing it or grounding. Totally freaked about it. I've opened up more and I'm just having to learn what to do about it. It will be fine. Another thing I've noticed is that I'm seeing a whole lot more movement around the house. Inside and out. I keep thinking someone is walking across my driveway. It's really annoying because I look every time. LOL
I'm off now to color my hair... I wonder what color it will be when I get out of the shower. LOL I'll let you know.
Thursday, June 10, 2004
Tickle's Original Inkblot Test
This means you are full of questions about life, people, and the potential of your future. You spend more time than others envisioning the possibilities of your life — things that others are too afraid to consider.
Your curiosity burns with an almost physical need to know and do more. It's only through new experiences that you feel a greater understanding of yourself or the world — which ultimately is the greatest way for you to feel satisfied.
It is possible that the underlying reason for your drive towards curiosity is a deeply rooted fear of boredom. That means that you are probably more susceptible than others to feel like you're falling into a rut when life slows down into a comfortable routine.
You need to make sure you have stimulation in your life — that makes you feel like you're innovating or being exposed to the ideas and experiences that truly inspire you.
With such a strong orientation towards curiosity, you're also prone to a rebellious quality that shows up when you feel you are just going through the motions, and are unable to really influence the world around you. But interestingly enough, your drive towards novel experiences also indicates an openness others don't have, but wish they did.
Unconsciously, your curiosity presses you to learn more, experience more, and get the most out of life.
Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Curiosity, there is much more to who you are at your core.
This means you are full of questions about life, people, and the potential of your future. You spend more time than others envisioning the possibilities of your life — things that others are too afraid to consider.
Your curiosity burns with an almost physical need to know and do more. It's only through new experiences that you feel a greater understanding of yourself or the world — which ultimately is the greatest way for you to feel satisfied.
It is possible that the underlying reason for your drive towards curiosity is a deeply rooted fear of boredom. That means that you are probably more susceptible than others to feel like you're falling into a rut when life slows down into a comfortable routine.
You need to make sure you have stimulation in your life — that makes you feel like you're innovating or being exposed to the ideas and experiences that truly inspire you.
With such a strong orientation towards curiosity, you're also prone to a rebellious quality that shows up when you feel you are just going through the motions, and are unable to really influence the world around you. But interestingly enough, your drive towards novel experiences also indicates an openness others don't have, but wish they did.
Unconsciously, your curiosity presses you to learn more, experience more, and get the most out of life.
Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Curiosity, there is much more to who you are at your core.
Thursday, December 19, 2002 (5:28 AM)
Daily Quado:
Do you have a message for the Webpage today?
Yes, of course. I will always have a message for our wonderful readers, always.
Today I would like to talk about letting things be. There are things you need to do to make things happen: you need to be clear in your intent, you need to take action, physically, emotionally and spiritually, which supports your desire and intent. But then, you also need to let things be, let things flow, let things develop.
You need perseverance of the active kind, and also perseverance of the patient kind. Some things simply take time. Some things, especially those things most wonderful, will be an intricate design which develops over months and years, a set of coincidences which dazzle.
It is also true that while you wait, and while you learn and develop and grow, you will be preparing yourself for the state into which you will come. It is not a good and a healthy thing to be thrust into instant success and achievement. It is much better for this to come to you as a lover long courted, a relationship which develops over time. You and your dream should get to know each other slowly, learning who you are, understanding the good and the less good sides of what you covet and desire. You should have kisses and touches before you finally consummate your desire. You should flirt, make advances, get rebuffed, and yet make a little progress. You should know how precious what you desire is, how elusive and desirable, but you should also have glimpses of the earthiness, the day-to-dayness of what attracts you.
Be very patient as your desires unfold. Be very patient, yet stay your course. Enjoy the process. Enjoy the flirtation. Realize that this part, the part where you are first falling in love, still slightly dazzled by the beauty of your desire, yet beginning to see that it may in fact come to pass, is often the most precious, the most treasured time of all. Know that the attainment is often less fulfilling than the pursuit. And knowing this, enjoy the pursuit of your dreams. Enjoy exploring and learning and pursuing. Enjoy it all.
And let it be. Let other people be who they are. Let life be as it is. If this avenue closes, do not waste your time in regret, simply pursue another. If this experience disappoints, be glad for the knowledge and move on to the next. And if things seem to take a long time in developing, be glad for the time spent holding hands and the occasional furtive kiss. You will someday look back at the naiveté and wonder you felt at these early stages and wish you were still there, back in the innocent days of thinking that if only, if only you could have this one thing, your life would be perfect.
The fact is, your life is perfect right now. And the more you allow yourself to dream, and patiently yet ardently, even passionately, pursue those dreams, the more full and yes, perfect, it will be.
And so, letting things be is not dull resignation, and certainly not depression. Letting things be is in the spirit of watching a flower open. It cannot be rushed. And in fact, its actual progress is so slow, it cannot even be seen, even if you sit and stare at the flower. And yet, it happens. And yet, over time, the flower opens, in its own way, at its own pace. And when it does, the perfume spreads across the garden and the beauty dazzles the eye.
But everything has its season, and everything has its cycle. And your flower may stay in full open display for only a short time, before it is done, begins to close, and this experience is over. How foolish to have cared only for that fully open moment! Instead, enjoy the whole cycle. Cherish things in the bud, nurture them along, enjoy each phase of their development. The full flower, yes, but also the shy and gradual revealing.
Do not frantically search the garden for that fully open flower, when you might instead find a bud and enjoy a long and happy relationship helping it to full flower.
Life is so precious. I wish for you that you find your opening flowers, and find the love in your heart to shower upon them, and the peace to be patient and appreciative as they open. And let all of this bring you joy.
***
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Daily Quado:
Do you have a message for the Webpage today?
Yes, of course. I will always have a message for our wonderful readers, always.
Today I would like to talk about letting things be. There are things you need to do to make things happen: you need to be clear in your intent, you need to take action, physically, emotionally and spiritually, which supports your desire and intent. But then, you also need to let things be, let things flow, let things develop.
You need perseverance of the active kind, and also perseverance of the patient kind. Some things simply take time. Some things, especially those things most wonderful, will be an intricate design which develops over months and years, a set of coincidences which dazzle.
It is also true that while you wait, and while you learn and develop and grow, you will be preparing yourself for the state into which you will come. It is not a good and a healthy thing to be thrust into instant success and achievement. It is much better for this to come to you as a lover long courted, a relationship which develops over time. You and your dream should get to know each other slowly, learning who you are, understanding the good and the less good sides of what you covet and desire. You should have kisses and touches before you finally consummate your desire. You should flirt, make advances, get rebuffed, and yet make a little progress. You should know how precious what you desire is, how elusive and desirable, but you should also have glimpses of the earthiness, the day-to-dayness of what attracts you.
Be very patient as your desires unfold. Be very patient, yet stay your course. Enjoy the process. Enjoy the flirtation. Realize that this part, the part where you are first falling in love, still slightly dazzled by the beauty of your desire, yet beginning to see that it may in fact come to pass, is often the most precious, the most treasured time of all. Know that the attainment is often less fulfilling than the pursuit. And knowing this, enjoy the pursuit of your dreams. Enjoy exploring and learning and pursuing. Enjoy it all.
And let it be. Let other people be who they are. Let life be as it is. If this avenue closes, do not waste your time in regret, simply pursue another. If this experience disappoints, be glad for the knowledge and move on to the next. And if things seem to take a long time in developing, be glad for the time spent holding hands and the occasional furtive kiss. You will someday look back at the naiveté and wonder you felt at these early stages and wish you were still there, back in the innocent days of thinking that if only, if only you could have this one thing, your life would be perfect.
The fact is, your life is perfect right now. And the more you allow yourself to dream, and patiently yet ardently, even passionately, pursue those dreams, the more full and yes, perfect, it will be.
And so, letting things be is not dull resignation, and certainly not depression. Letting things be is in the spirit of watching a flower open. It cannot be rushed. And in fact, its actual progress is so slow, it cannot even be seen, even if you sit and stare at the flower. And yet, it happens. And yet, over time, the flower opens, in its own way, at its own pace. And when it does, the perfume spreads across the garden and the beauty dazzles the eye.
But everything has its season, and everything has its cycle. And your flower may stay in full open display for only a short time, before it is done, begins to close, and this experience is over. How foolish to have cared only for that fully open moment! Instead, enjoy the whole cycle. Cherish things in the bud, nurture them along, enjoy each phase of their development. The full flower, yes, but also the shy and gradual revealing.
Do not frantically search the garden for that fully open flower, when you might instead find a bud and enjoy a long and happy relationship helping it to full flower.
Life is so precious. I wish for you that you find your opening flowers, and find the love in your heart to shower upon them, and the peace to be patient and appreciative as they open. And let all of this bring you joy.
***
Visit www.carriehart.com for meditation CDs, healing services, music and more. To hear samples from the Quado Meditation on Self-Love, go directly to http://www.carriehart.com/meditations.htm
This newsletter is distributed free of charge. Just send an email with Subscribe or Unsubscribe as the subject to carriehart@msn.com .
Copyright 2004 by Systematique, Inc.
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
Well today was a little strange. I felt so raw... It's not the right word but as close as I can get. I woke up feeling that way and when I read my emails I realized that I was picking up feeling stronger than I had. If someone was annoyed I felt it but the problem was I started feeling annoyed. Maybe it is because I asked to open up more and it's starting. LOL So I'll be more careful.
I'm getting excited about my trip. Everyday, I can't help but grinning because I get to go meet my friends from WG in the UK. I am excited. There is so much to do! LOL I've got books to read, I've got to take my computer (so I can download my pics to it), camera, little wire that goes between camera and computer, memory sticks for the camera, a journal to write in, decide which book/s I want to take with me. Oh yeah clothes... :-D I must pack clothes too! I've been thinking on that. LOL I guess layers. Heck I'd know for sure on the temps here. Cause in July/August it will be hot as hell here. LOL So I guess I'll take some layer type stuff just in case.
I'm getting excited about my trip. Everyday, I can't help but grinning because I get to go meet my friends from WG in the UK. I am excited. There is so much to do! LOL I've got books to read, I've got to take my computer (so I can download my pics to it), camera, little wire that goes between camera and computer, memory sticks for the camera, a journal to write in, decide which book/s I want to take with me. Oh yeah clothes... :-D I must pack clothes too! I've been thinking on that. LOL I guess layers. Heck I'd know for sure on the temps here. Cause in July/August it will be hot as hell here. LOL So I guess I'll take some layer type stuff just in case.
Sunday, June 06, 2004
Here is another good article I got from a list I'm on.
How To Stop Absorbing The Energy of Others
by Judith Orloff MD
How do you constructively deal with intuitive empathy? What practical
methods can you employ to avoid becoming overamped or depleted? I'm
going to present some strategies I use. Try them. See which appeal. One
is not more preferable than another. Most important is if your choice
works.
Walk away. Let's say you're chatting with a man you've just met at a
conference and your energy starts bottoming out. Here's how to tell if
you're being zapped: Don't hesitate to politely excuse yourself; move at
least twenty feet from him (outside the range of his energy field). If
you receive immediate relief, there's your answer. Most people are
oblivious to how their energy impacts others. Even energy
vampires--people who feed off your energy to compensate for a lack of
their own--aren't generally intending to sap you yet still they do.
Obnoxious or meek, vampires come in all forms. Watch out for them. For
years, reluctant to hurt anyone's feelings, I needlessly endured these
types of situations and suffered. How many of us are so loathe to appear
rude that a raving maniac can be right in our face, and still we don't
budge for fear of offending? Whenever possible--if your well-being feels
at risk with an individual or group--give yourself permission to make a
tactful and swift exit. In a spot, physically removing yourself is a
sure quick solution.
Shield yourself. A handy form of protection many people use, including
healers with trying patients, involves visualizing an envelope of white
light (or any color you feel imparts power) around your entire body.
Think of it as a shield that blocks out negativity or physical
discomfort but allows what's positive to filter in. For instance, your
sister is on the rampage. She's about to blow up; you don't want her
anger to shatter you. Now--take a deep breath, center yourself, engage
your shield. Literally picture it forming a fail-safe barrier around you
which deactivates anger. It simply can't get to you. Shielding is a
deliberately defensive technique aimed at guarding your feelings, not
repressing them. It works by establishing a perimeter of protection
around you that functionally doesn't permit harm in.
Practice vulnerability. One tenet of my spiritual practice is to remain
as vulnerable as I can to everything; not to shield, the antithesis of
defense. Some people prefer my strategy, some don't. Use it if it
succeeds for you. Here's the premise (not madness) behind this: if we
solidify our bond to our inner self, we'll become centered enough not to
need to defend at all. Thus, the best protection turns out to be no
protection--a stance that initially alarmed me. It didn't seem possible
I could do hands-on energy work with someone who had cancer or
depression, for example, without absorbing their symptoms myself. But it
was. What could be more liberating than to find I could hold my own and
still remain open! Too often we're taught to equate vulnerability with
weakness. Not so. I like being vulnerable and also strong. This disarms
people. To me, the appeal of such an approach is that it's a
non-fear-based way of living in the world. It requires that,
increasingly, you harmonize with whatever you confront, let it flow
through you, then recenter again, stabilized by your own resilience.
Pace yourself. A vulnerable posture will feel safer the stronger you
get. It is a choice and a life-long practice.
Meditate. To cement your inner bond and hold your center in any
situation, I recommend a daily practice of meditation where you focus on
the spirit within. Doing so gets you into the habit of connecting with
yourself. Start with a few minutes, then gradually increase the
duration. The technique is simple: follow your breath and explore the
silence. It is not void or empty; that's the mystery. As thoughts come,
and they will, continue to refocus on your breath. Every inhalation.
Every exhalation. The spaces between thoughts are where your spirit
waits to be discovered. There is something real in there worth finding.
My spirit feels like a core of head-to-toe warmth vertically aligned
though the center of my body. Imbued in the warmth itself is an
intelligence and intuitive responsiveness to my rhythms and questions.
It speaks only truth, which resonates like a chiming in every cell.
Silently become acquainted with your spirit. You can return to it to
reinforce who you really are--not just the self you present to the
world, but that part of you that is timeless. Make room to pursue it.
Judith Orloff MD is a board certified psychiatrist, a practicing
intuitive, and author of Positive Energy: Ten Extraordinary
Prescriptions for Transforming Fatigue, Stress, and Fear Into Vibrance,
Strength, and Love (Harmony Books.) She is also author of the
bestsellers Guide to Intuitive Healing and Second Sight. She's an
assistant clinical professor of psychiatry at UCLA, has a private
practice in Los Angeles, and is an international workshop leader on the
interrelationship of medicine, intuition, and spirituality. Her work has
been featured on CNN, PBS, A@E and NPR. Dr. Orloff's website is
www.drjudithorloff.com.
How To Stop Absorbing The Energy of Others
by Judith Orloff MD
How do you constructively deal with intuitive empathy? What practical
methods can you employ to avoid becoming overamped or depleted? I'm
going to present some strategies I use. Try them. See which appeal. One
is not more preferable than another. Most important is if your choice
works.
Walk away. Let's say you're chatting with a man you've just met at a
conference and your energy starts bottoming out. Here's how to tell if
you're being zapped: Don't hesitate to politely excuse yourself; move at
least twenty feet from him (outside the range of his energy field). If
you receive immediate relief, there's your answer. Most people are
oblivious to how their energy impacts others. Even energy
vampires--people who feed off your energy to compensate for a lack of
their own--aren't generally intending to sap you yet still they do.
Obnoxious or meek, vampires come in all forms. Watch out for them. For
years, reluctant to hurt anyone's feelings, I needlessly endured these
types of situations and suffered. How many of us are so loathe to appear
rude that a raving maniac can be right in our face, and still we don't
budge for fear of offending? Whenever possible--if your well-being feels
at risk with an individual or group--give yourself permission to make a
tactful and swift exit. In a spot, physically removing yourself is a
sure quick solution.
Shield yourself. A handy form of protection many people use, including
healers with trying patients, involves visualizing an envelope of white
light (or any color you feel imparts power) around your entire body.
Think of it as a shield that blocks out negativity or physical
discomfort but allows what's positive to filter in. For instance, your
sister is on the rampage. She's about to blow up; you don't want her
anger to shatter you. Now--take a deep breath, center yourself, engage
your shield. Literally picture it forming a fail-safe barrier around you
which deactivates anger. It simply can't get to you. Shielding is a
deliberately defensive technique aimed at guarding your feelings, not
repressing them. It works by establishing a perimeter of protection
around you that functionally doesn't permit harm in.
Practice vulnerability. One tenet of my spiritual practice is to remain
as vulnerable as I can to everything; not to shield, the antithesis of
defense. Some people prefer my strategy, some don't. Use it if it
succeeds for you. Here's the premise (not madness) behind this: if we
solidify our bond to our inner self, we'll become centered enough not to
need to defend at all. Thus, the best protection turns out to be no
protection--a stance that initially alarmed me. It didn't seem possible
I could do hands-on energy work with someone who had cancer or
depression, for example, without absorbing their symptoms myself. But it
was. What could be more liberating than to find I could hold my own and
still remain open! Too often we're taught to equate vulnerability with
weakness. Not so. I like being vulnerable and also strong. This disarms
people. To me, the appeal of such an approach is that it's a
non-fear-based way of living in the world. It requires that,
increasingly, you harmonize with whatever you confront, let it flow
through you, then recenter again, stabilized by your own resilience.
Pace yourself. A vulnerable posture will feel safer the stronger you
get. It is a choice and a life-long practice.
Meditate. To cement your inner bond and hold your center in any
situation, I recommend a daily practice of meditation where you focus on
the spirit within. Doing so gets you into the habit of connecting with
yourself. Start with a few minutes, then gradually increase the
duration. The technique is simple: follow your breath and explore the
silence. It is not void or empty; that's the mystery. As thoughts come,
and they will, continue to refocus on your breath. Every inhalation.
Every exhalation. The spaces between thoughts are where your spirit
waits to be discovered. There is something real in there worth finding.
My spirit feels like a core of head-to-toe warmth vertically aligned
though the center of my body. Imbued in the warmth itself is an
intelligence and intuitive responsiveness to my rhythms and questions.
It speaks only truth, which resonates like a chiming in every cell.
Silently become acquainted with your spirit. You can return to it to
reinforce who you really are--not just the self you present to the
world, but that part of you that is timeless. Make room to pursue it.
Judith Orloff MD is a board certified psychiatrist, a practicing
intuitive, and author of Positive Energy: Ten Extraordinary
Prescriptions for Transforming Fatigue, Stress, and Fear Into Vibrance,
Strength, and Love (Harmony Books.) She is also author of the
bestsellers Guide to Intuitive Healing and Second Sight. She's an
assistant clinical professor of psychiatry at UCLA, has a private
practice in Los Angeles, and is an international workshop leader on the
interrelationship of medicine, intuition, and spirituality. Her work has
been featured on CNN, PBS, A@E and NPR. Dr. Orloff's website is
www.drjudithorloff.com.
Discovering Your "Area of Power"
by Lynn Woodland
reprinted with permission
A seeker asks, "I want to make a difference in the world, but there are so many causes crying for attention that I feel overwhelmed. I don't know where to put my energy to have the greatest impact. Where do I begin?"
Lynn Answers:
There is no one "right" place to begin. Each of us has a different starting place, and the place where we will be of greatest service has to do with where we most want to give. If we want to have an impact on the world around us, it's important to identify what I think of as our "Area of Power." Our Area of Power is where we feel the most passion to act and have the most faith that results are possible.
If we pray for world peace, but have no vision of what this would look like and no faith that our prayers will help, our impact is less than if we pray for peace and harmony in our own family with a clear picture of what this means and excitement that healing is possible. Without faith that we can make a difference, our power to help is diminished.
The following steps will help you make the shift from ineffective good intentions to being a powerful catalyst for positive change. With this approach you are very likely to see results, which is important because when we see that we've had an impact, we have more faith in our spiritual power. With faith, our power increases and our Area of Power expands.
While I'm primarily addressing here how to be of service, the personal fringe benefits to helping are many. As we increase our power to change the world around us, our power to shape and transform our personal lives grows as well. As we understand how connected we are to all life, we find that our heartfelt effort to support another person's highest good just naturally furthers our own as well, often in ways we never would have imagined.
Step One: Remember Who You Are
Know that you are more than a collection of personal desires, personal problems and personal histories. Every one of us is a spiritual force with limitless wisdom, power and love. Remember and remind yourself often of this truth.
Step Two: Identify Your "Area of Power"
Choose something to "light up" with the force of your spiritual power. It could be a person, a cause, or an area of the world. In deciding who or what to light up, listen to your heart rather than your fears and "shoulds." Let go of all judgments around what cause seems worthier and instead ask yourself where you feel the most passion to help. Where could you give service the most joyfully? It may be a world cause, it may be assisting a friend in pain. Don't assume the "bigger" cause is the better one. Where you feel the strongest pull is your Area of Power. This is where you will do the most good. If you feel no passion for any area of service, then assume you are your worthiest cause. You may need to begin your path of service by asking God to light you.
Step Three: Grow Your Faith
Along with passion, it's important to have faith and trust your cause is not a hopeless one. Faith and passion are a powerful combination. It isn't necessary to dispel all doubt in order to access the power of faith. As Jesus pointed out, it only takes the faith of a mustard seed to move a mountain. You can grow your faith bigger by giving more attention to all that has been accomplished and how much can be accomplished than to how much is wrong and how far there is to go. Keep your mind open to miracles and solutions you haven't yet imagined. If it's still difficult to believe your efforts can and do make a difference, imagine how you would feel if you did have total faith. Imagine what it would feel like to be someone you know of whose faith and power to make a difference is greater than yours. As you step out of yourself in this way and see through new eyes, you will experience a bigger faith. Even a moment of faith is a powerful force.
Step Four: Shine Your Light
Knowing yourself to be a spiritual being with the power to move mountains, imagine shining your Light into the area of need you have identified as your Area of Power. Do this in your own way. Say a prayer. Visualize a shining light dispelling all darkness. Open your heart with loving intent that the highest outcome now come to pass. Ritualize it in any way that helps you know the importance and sacredness of what you are doing.
Instead of focusing on fixing the pain and breakdown you perceive, find the core of health in a person or situation and imagine that growing bigger. Let go of what form healing is to take. Don't tell God what to do. Instead, open your mind to outcomes far better than you are currently able to imagine. Let the hand of Spirit move the mountain.
Spiritual work of this sort has been demonstrated to have a powerful effect. Numerous studies have shown, for example, that prayer speeds up the healing process, even in people who don't know they are receiving prayers. (For an excellent compilation of research on the power of prayer, see Larry Dossey's book, Healing Words.) Know that your gift is having an effect whether or not you see results in the way you want to. Healing is often like a seed that, once planted, remains invisible and dormant for a time until the growing season arrives. And when growth happens, it may not reflect your agenda.
Step Five: Take Action
Do the above spiritual work before deciding on a course of action. Prayer often eliminates steps and helps direct us to the action that will do the most good. Again, in deciding what action to take, follow your heart. Find the action that feels joyful to do and know that even the smallest action when it has spiritual power behind it makes a difference. Let go of judgments about the worthiness or importance of the action you take. Self-importance will diminish your spiritual power as will a lack of faith in yourself.
Over the years I have encountered many spiritual teachers and leaders of social change. There are a few who stick in my mind as especially powerful. However, along with the movers and shakers who are working in an obvious way to heal the world, there have been people who I've been just as deeply moved by in spite of their humble activities.
One such person is a woman I regularly encountered in my former hometown of Baltimore when I bought gas. She worked in a small Plexiglas booth between gas pumps on a busy stretch of city street in a neighborhood considered unsavory. Her job certainly wasn't glamorous, easy or overtly aimed at world healing. Yet she had an aura about her. Her smile was authentic and heartfelt whether it was to a polite elderly person or an intoxicated troublesome one. She seemed to create a ripple of peace around her in this chaotic atmosphere. More than once my encounter with her changed my day significantly for the better. It's hard to know how profoundly she affects the world around her through these simple emanations of love. My guess is that her impact is considerable, and so can yours be.
by Lynn Woodland
reprinted with permission
A seeker asks, "I want to make a difference in the world, but there are so many causes crying for attention that I feel overwhelmed. I don't know where to put my energy to have the greatest impact. Where do I begin?"
Lynn Answers:
There is no one "right" place to begin. Each of us has a different starting place, and the place where we will be of greatest service has to do with where we most want to give. If we want to have an impact on the world around us, it's important to identify what I think of as our "Area of Power." Our Area of Power is where we feel the most passion to act and have the most faith that results are possible.
If we pray for world peace, but have no vision of what this would look like and no faith that our prayers will help, our impact is less than if we pray for peace and harmony in our own family with a clear picture of what this means and excitement that healing is possible. Without faith that we can make a difference, our power to help is diminished.
The following steps will help you make the shift from ineffective good intentions to being a powerful catalyst for positive change. With this approach you are very likely to see results, which is important because when we see that we've had an impact, we have more faith in our spiritual power. With faith, our power increases and our Area of Power expands.
While I'm primarily addressing here how to be of service, the personal fringe benefits to helping are many. As we increase our power to change the world around us, our power to shape and transform our personal lives grows as well. As we understand how connected we are to all life, we find that our heartfelt effort to support another person's highest good just naturally furthers our own as well, often in ways we never would have imagined.
Step One: Remember Who You Are
Know that you are more than a collection of personal desires, personal problems and personal histories. Every one of us is a spiritual force with limitless wisdom, power and love. Remember and remind yourself often of this truth.
Step Two: Identify Your "Area of Power"
Choose something to "light up" with the force of your spiritual power. It could be a person, a cause, or an area of the world. In deciding who or what to light up, listen to your heart rather than your fears and "shoulds." Let go of all judgments around what cause seems worthier and instead ask yourself where you feel the most passion to help. Where could you give service the most joyfully? It may be a world cause, it may be assisting a friend in pain. Don't assume the "bigger" cause is the better one. Where you feel the strongest pull is your Area of Power. This is where you will do the most good. If you feel no passion for any area of service, then assume you are your worthiest cause. You may need to begin your path of service by asking God to light you.
Step Three: Grow Your Faith
Along with passion, it's important to have faith and trust your cause is not a hopeless one. Faith and passion are a powerful combination. It isn't necessary to dispel all doubt in order to access the power of faith. As Jesus pointed out, it only takes the faith of a mustard seed to move a mountain. You can grow your faith bigger by giving more attention to all that has been accomplished and how much can be accomplished than to how much is wrong and how far there is to go. Keep your mind open to miracles and solutions you haven't yet imagined. If it's still difficult to believe your efforts can and do make a difference, imagine how you would feel if you did have total faith. Imagine what it would feel like to be someone you know of whose faith and power to make a difference is greater than yours. As you step out of yourself in this way and see through new eyes, you will experience a bigger faith. Even a moment of faith is a powerful force.
Step Four: Shine Your Light
Knowing yourself to be a spiritual being with the power to move mountains, imagine shining your Light into the area of need you have identified as your Area of Power. Do this in your own way. Say a prayer. Visualize a shining light dispelling all darkness. Open your heart with loving intent that the highest outcome now come to pass. Ritualize it in any way that helps you know the importance and sacredness of what you are doing.
Instead of focusing on fixing the pain and breakdown you perceive, find the core of health in a person or situation and imagine that growing bigger. Let go of what form healing is to take. Don't tell God what to do. Instead, open your mind to outcomes far better than you are currently able to imagine. Let the hand of Spirit move the mountain.
Spiritual work of this sort has been demonstrated to have a powerful effect. Numerous studies have shown, for example, that prayer speeds up the healing process, even in people who don't know they are receiving prayers. (For an excellent compilation of research on the power of prayer, see Larry Dossey's book, Healing Words.) Know that your gift is having an effect whether or not you see results in the way you want to. Healing is often like a seed that, once planted, remains invisible and dormant for a time until the growing season arrives. And when growth happens, it may not reflect your agenda.
Step Five: Take Action
Do the above spiritual work before deciding on a course of action. Prayer often eliminates steps and helps direct us to the action that will do the most good. Again, in deciding what action to take, follow your heart. Find the action that feels joyful to do and know that even the smallest action when it has spiritual power behind it makes a difference. Let go of judgments about the worthiness or importance of the action you take. Self-importance will diminish your spiritual power as will a lack of faith in yourself.
Over the years I have encountered many spiritual teachers and leaders of social change. There are a few who stick in my mind as especially powerful. However, along with the movers and shakers who are working in an obvious way to heal the world, there have been people who I've been just as deeply moved by in spite of their humble activities.
One such person is a woman I regularly encountered in my former hometown of Baltimore when I bought gas. She worked in a small Plexiglas booth between gas pumps on a busy stretch of city street in a neighborhood considered unsavory. Her job certainly wasn't glamorous, easy or overtly aimed at world healing. Yet she had an aura about her. Her smile was authentic and heartfelt whether it was to a polite elderly person or an intoxicated troublesome one. She seemed to create a ripple of peace around her in this chaotic atmosphere. More than once my encounter with her changed my day significantly for the better. It's hard to know how profoundly she affects the world around her through these simple emanations of love. My guess is that her impact is considerable, and so can yours be.
Wisdom from Grandmother Butterfly
I am Butterfly Woman. I am a keeper of the Pathways of Change. This law of our Holy Mother guides all aspects of change. Therefore, this principle is very active. It is the guidepost for that movement which we call Life. Life is ever-changing, ever-growing, ever-expressing. If you were to look within the very movements of the Elements, you would see this pattern known as Universal Law of Change.
I am here to speak of how to accelerate transformation. For the Butterfly walks the Medicine Wheel in the Four Directions, having four stages of life..
Great Spirit sends forth life. Mother Earth provides a little world for this life to grow. We call this life the egg. And within the egg the individual gestates and internalizes their purpose for being, visioning who they are and why. This is the first stage of life, the first stage of transformation. This is why the Medicine Path first sends the individual to first be with themself and Spirit, to be in this egg of centering.
It is a womb of nourishment, protection for the nourishment needed is already there; for the Universe takes care of all of its own. With great excitement the being moves from this direction of the East to the South, going forth as that caterpillar to experience life, new concepts; to become more through living life out loud with vigor in the strength of the self, to experience Love, to experience the innocent nature, to experience Truth in the world, and ingest the blessings of the Tree of Life.
This step upon the wheel tends to be a longer one. For there is much to digest in order to understand that vision, that purpose discovered in the East.
When the vision of Life unfolds and enough experiences have become one with you, it is time for the West, time to go within that cocoon, to go within that cave, as the Bear would teach. Look within to unfold experiences of Life, feel the warmth of the Mother again held within this Cosmic womb, reflect in the Mirror of Self, discover the Love within the Sacred Silence and shift within to prepare for the Great Day of Healing. For only within the protection of the Mother's heart can the wings of Spirit grow, can the spiritual abilities mature. In the West as in the East, the cocoon unfolds transformation as the egg unfolds Life. Those experiences of the South are finally understood, within, without, and in relation to the Silent Universe.
And at some moment when praying, the Dawn opens again, the inner fires burst forth, the cocoon parts, and, as if walking out of your own skin, as if dropping your robe, you step into the North a new being. It's stepping into the airs of True Reality, stepping into the Wisdom of the Grandfathers.
Patience is necessary to dry the wings before flight, to receive that healing and complete integration. Then, on a crisp, sunny morning the Spirit will call, the wings will unfold, the wheel will have been walked, Life will have evolved and flight to new service with the nectars of Life is yours.
In this place called the Spirit Door, you dwell in the Service with the Spirits of the Holy Breath. This is the promise of the Butterfly Medicine. This is the cycle of transformation that Butterfly Medicine brings.
Within the course of human unfoldment, human beings must walk this path through the Rainbow, through the Seven Mountains of Self, walking this Wheel of Transformation. This means seven lifetimes, seven realities, seven bodies or physical forms. Yet, through the gift of our Holy Mother of this Universal Law, through the gift of the Butterfly Medicine which is instantly invoked, this transformation is accelerated to great capacities. Within a Moon Cycle, a dedicated being can complete one of these Sacred Mountains of Self. Within a year, the Medicine of the Butterfly is anchored and complete, a full cycle in rhythm with Mother Earth's seasons.
The Holy Ones through our Medicine could transform a being in a single day.
So before invoking this Medicine of personal transformation, call upon this Sacred Law, go and pray together with the Spirits that guide you, understand and choose the cycle of your unfolding, be it a day, be it a week, be it a Moon, or be it a year. For one trip around this wheel, Great Mystery Mother grants blessing to the human beings. For this change is a graceful one, an accelerated path.
Choose it, embrace it, become it, enjoy it.
Always walk this Path of the Butterfly in sincerity and Butterfly Woman will be there to watch, to protect, and to teach.
http://www.globalmeditations.com/butterflies.htm
I am Butterfly Woman. I am a keeper of the Pathways of Change. This law of our Holy Mother guides all aspects of change. Therefore, this principle is very active. It is the guidepost for that movement which we call Life. Life is ever-changing, ever-growing, ever-expressing. If you were to look within the very movements of the Elements, you would see this pattern known as Universal Law of Change.
I am here to speak of how to accelerate transformation. For the Butterfly walks the Medicine Wheel in the Four Directions, having four stages of life..
Great Spirit sends forth life. Mother Earth provides a little world for this life to grow. We call this life the egg. And within the egg the individual gestates and internalizes their purpose for being, visioning who they are and why. This is the first stage of life, the first stage of transformation. This is why the Medicine Path first sends the individual to first be with themself and Spirit, to be in this egg of centering.
It is a womb of nourishment, protection for the nourishment needed is already there; for the Universe takes care of all of its own. With great excitement the being moves from this direction of the East to the South, going forth as that caterpillar to experience life, new concepts; to become more through living life out loud with vigor in the strength of the self, to experience Love, to experience the innocent nature, to experience Truth in the world, and ingest the blessings of the Tree of Life.
This step upon the wheel tends to be a longer one. For there is much to digest in order to understand that vision, that purpose discovered in the East.
When the vision of Life unfolds and enough experiences have become one with you, it is time for the West, time to go within that cocoon, to go within that cave, as the Bear would teach. Look within to unfold experiences of Life, feel the warmth of the Mother again held within this Cosmic womb, reflect in the Mirror of Self, discover the Love within the Sacred Silence and shift within to prepare for the Great Day of Healing. For only within the protection of the Mother's heart can the wings of Spirit grow, can the spiritual abilities mature. In the West as in the East, the cocoon unfolds transformation as the egg unfolds Life. Those experiences of the South are finally understood, within, without, and in relation to the Silent Universe.
And at some moment when praying, the Dawn opens again, the inner fires burst forth, the cocoon parts, and, as if walking out of your own skin, as if dropping your robe, you step into the North a new being. It's stepping into the airs of True Reality, stepping into the Wisdom of the Grandfathers.
Patience is necessary to dry the wings before flight, to receive that healing and complete integration. Then, on a crisp, sunny morning the Spirit will call, the wings will unfold, the wheel will have been walked, Life will have evolved and flight to new service with the nectars of Life is yours.
In this place called the Spirit Door, you dwell in the Service with the Spirits of the Holy Breath. This is the promise of the Butterfly Medicine. This is the cycle of transformation that Butterfly Medicine brings.
Within the course of human unfoldment, human beings must walk this path through the Rainbow, through the Seven Mountains of Self, walking this Wheel of Transformation. This means seven lifetimes, seven realities, seven bodies or physical forms. Yet, through the gift of our Holy Mother of this Universal Law, through the gift of the Butterfly Medicine which is instantly invoked, this transformation is accelerated to great capacities. Within a Moon Cycle, a dedicated being can complete one of these Sacred Mountains of Self. Within a year, the Medicine of the Butterfly is anchored and complete, a full cycle in rhythm with Mother Earth's seasons.
The Holy Ones through our Medicine could transform a being in a single day.
So before invoking this Medicine of personal transformation, call upon this Sacred Law, go and pray together with the Spirits that guide you, understand and choose the cycle of your unfolding, be it a day, be it a week, be it a Moon, or be it a year. For one trip around this wheel, Great Mystery Mother grants blessing to the human beings. For this change is a graceful one, an accelerated path.
Choose it, embrace it, become it, enjoy it.
Always walk this Path of the Butterfly in sincerity and Butterfly Woman will be there to watch, to protect, and to teach.
http://www.globalmeditations.com/butterflies.htm
How to Attract Abundance
Ten steps to feeling successful in your life.
By Wayne Dyer
Step 1: See the world as an abundant, providing, friendly place. When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change. When you see the world as abundant and friendly, your intentions are genuine possibilities. They will, in fact, become a certainty, because your world will be experienced from the higher frequencies. In this first step, you're receptive to a world that provides rather than
restricts. You'll see a world that wants you to be successful and abundant, rather than one that conspires against you.
Step 2: Affirm: I attract success and abundance into my life because that is who I am. This puts you into vibratory harmony with your Source. Your goal is to
eliminate any distance between what you desire and that from which you pull it into your life. Abundance and success aren't out there waiting to show up for you. You are already it, and the Source can only provide you with what it is, and, consequently, what you are already.
Step 3: Stay in an attitude of allowing. Resistance is disharmony between your desire for abundance and your beliefs about your ability or unworthiness. Allowing means a perfect alignment. An attitude of allowing means that you ignore efforts by others to dissuade you. It also means that you don't rely on your pervious ego-oriented beliefs about abundance being a part of or not a part of your life. In an attitude of allowing, all resistance in the form of thoughts of negativity or doubt are replaced with simply knowing that you and your Source are one and the same. Picture the abundance you desire freely flowing directly to you. Refuse to do anything or have any thought that compromises your alignment with Source.
Step 4: Use your present moments to activate thoughts that are in harmony with the seven faces of intention [creativity, kindness, love, beauty, expansion, abundance, and peaceful receptivity]. The key phrase here is present moments. Notice right now, in this moment, if you're thinking that it's hopeless at this stage of your life to change the thoughts that comprise your belief system. Do you defeat yourself
with thoughts of having had such a long life practicing affirmations of scarcity and creating resistance to your success and abundance that you don't have enough time left to counterbalance the thoughts that comprise your belief system?
Make the choice to let go of that lifetime of beliefs, and begin activating thoughts rights now that allow you to feel good. Say I want to feel good whenever anyone tries to convince you that your desires are futile. Say I want to feel good when you're tempted to return to low energy thoughts of disharmony with intention. Eventually your present moments will activate thoughts that make you feel good, and this is an indicator that you're reconnecting to intention. Wanting to feel good is synonymous with wanting to feel God. Remember, "God is good, and all that God created was good."
Step 5: Initiate actions that support your feelings of abundance and success. Here, the key word is actions. I've been calling this acting as if or thinking from the end and acting that way. Put your body into a gear that pushes you toward abundance and feeling successful. Act on those passionate emotions as if the abundance and success you seek is already here. Speak to strangers with passion in your voice.
Answer the telephone in an inspired way. Do a job interview from the place of confidence and joy. Read the books that mysteriously show up, and pay close attention to conversation that seem to indicate you're being called to something new.
Step 6: Remember that your prosperity and success will benefit others, and that no one lacks abundance because you've opted for it. The supply is unlimited. The more you partake of the universal generosity, the more you'll have to share with others. In writing this book, wonderful abundance has flowed into my life in many ways. But even more significantly, book editors and graphic designers, the truck drivers
who deliver the book, the auto workers who build the trucks, the farmers who feed the auto workers, and bookstore clerks. all receive abundance because I've followed my bliss and have written this book.
Step 7: Monitor your emotions as a guidance system for your connection to the universal mind of intention. Strong emotions such as passion and bliss are indications that you're connected to Spirit, or inspired, if you will. When you're inspired, you activate dormant forces, and the abundance you seek in any form comes streaming into your life. When you're experiencing low-energy emotions of rage, anger, hatred, anxiety, despair, and the like, that's a clue that while your desires
may be strong, they're completely out of sync with the field of intention. Remind yourself in these moments that you want to feel good, and see if you can activate a thought that supports your feeling good.
Step 8: Become as generous to the world with your abundance as the field of intention is to you. Don't stop the flow of abundant energy by hoarding or owning what you receive. Keep it moving. Use your prosperity in the service of others, and for causes greater than your ego. The more you practice detachment, the more you'll stay in vibratory harmony with the all-giving Source of everything.
Step 9: Devote the necessary time to meditate on the Spirit within as the source of your success and abundance. There's no substitute for the practice of meditation. This is particularly relevant with abundance. You must have an understanding that your consciousness of the presence is your supply. By repeating the sound that is in the name of God as a mantra, you're using a technique for manifesting as ancient as recorded history. I am particularly drawn to the form of meditation
called Japa. I know it works.
Step 10: Develop an attitude of gratitude for all that manifests into your life. Be thankful and filled with awe and appreciation, even if what you desire hasn't arrived yet. Even the darkest days of your life are to be looked on with gratitude. Everything coming from Source is on purpose. Be thankful while empowering your reconnection to that form from which you and everything else originated.
. . .
The energy that creates worlds and universes is within you.
It works through attraction and energy. Everything vibrates; everything
has a vibratory frequency. As St. Paul said, "God is able to provide
you with every blessing in abundance." Tune to God's frequency, and you
will know it beyond any and all doubt!
Copyright 2004 by Wayne W. Dyer. All rights reserved.
Wayne Dyer is the author of more than 20 books, including the New York Times Bestseller '10 Secrets for Success and Inner Peace.' For more information, visit his website, DrWayneDyer.com.
Ten steps to feeling successful in your life.
By Wayne Dyer
Step 1: See the world as an abundant, providing, friendly place. When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change. When you see the world as abundant and friendly, your intentions are genuine possibilities. They will, in fact, become a certainty, because your world will be experienced from the higher frequencies. In this first step, you're receptive to a world that provides rather than
restricts. You'll see a world that wants you to be successful and abundant, rather than one that conspires against you.
Step 2: Affirm: I attract success and abundance into my life because that is who I am. This puts you into vibratory harmony with your Source. Your goal is to
eliminate any distance between what you desire and that from which you pull it into your life. Abundance and success aren't out there waiting to show up for you. You are already it, and the Source can only provide you with what it is, and, consequently, what you are already.
Step 3: Stay in an attitude of allowing. Resistance is disharmony between your desire for abundance and your beliefs about your ability or unworthiness. Allowing means a perfect alignment. An attitude of allowing means that you ignore efforts by others to dissuade you. It also means that you don't rely on your pervious ego-oriented beliefs about abundance being a part of or not a part of your life. In an attitude of allowing, all resistance in the form of thoughts of negativity or doubt are replaced with simply knowing that you and your Source are one and the same. Picture the abundance you desire freely flowing directly to you. Refuse to do anything or have any thought that compromises your alignment with Source.
Step 4: Use your present moments to activate thoughts that are in harmony with the seven faces of intention [creativity, kindness, love, beauty, expansion, abundance, and peaceful receptivity]. The key phrase here is present moments. Notice right now, in this moment, if you're thinking that it's hopeless at this stage of your life to change the thoughts that comprise your belief system. Do you defeat yourself
with thoughts of having had such a long life practicing affirmations of scarcity and creating resistance to your success and abundance that you don't have enough time left to counterbalance the thoughts that comprise your belief system?
Make the choice to let go of that lifetime of beliefs, and begin activating thoughts rights now that allow you to feel good. Say I want to feel good whenever anyone tries to convince you that your desires are futile. Say I want to feel good when you're tempted to return to low energy thoughts of disharmony with intention. Eventually your present moments will activate thoughts that make you feel good, and this is an indicator that you're reconnecting to intention. Wanting to feel good is synonymous with wanting to feel God. Remember, "God is good, and all that God created was good."
Step 5: Initiate actions that support your feelings of abundance and success. Here, the key word is actions. I've been calling this acting as if or thinking from the end and acting that way. Put your body into a gear that pushes you toward abundance and feeling successful. Act on those passionate emotions as if the abundance and success you seek is already here. Speak to strangers with passion in your voice.
Answer the telephone in an inspired way. Do a job interview from the place of confidence and joy. Read the books that mysteriously show up, and pay close attention to conversation that seem to indicate you're being called to something new.
Step 6: Remember that your prosperity and success will benefit others, and that no one lacks abundance because you've opted for it. The supply is unlimited. The more you partake of the universal generosity, the more you'll have to share with others. In writing this book, wonderful abundance has flowed into my life in many ways. But even more significantly, book editors and graphic designers, the truck drivers
who deliver the book, the auto workers who build the trucks, the farmers who feed the auto workers, and bookstore clerks. all receive abundance because I've followed my bliss and have written this book.
Step 7: Monitor your emotions as a guidance system for your connection to the universal mind of intention. Strong emotions such as passion and bliss are indications that you're connected to Spirit, or inspired, if you will. When you're inspired, you activate dormant forces, and the abundance you seek in any form comes streaming into your life. When you're experiencing low-energy emotions of rage, anger, hatred, anxiety, despair, and the like, that's a clue that while your desires
may be strong, they're completely out of sync with the field of intention. Remind yourself in these moments that you want to feel good, and see if you can activate a thought that supports your feeling good.
Step 8: Become as generous to the world with your abundance as the field of intention is to you. Don't stop the flow of abundant energy by hoarding or owning what you receive. Keep it moving. Use your prosperity in the service of others, and for causes greater than your ego. The more you practice detachment, the more you'll stay in vibratory harmony with the all-giving Source of everything.
Step 9: Devote the necessary time to meditate on the Spirit within as the source of your success and abundance. There's no substitute for the practice of meditation. This is particularly relevant with abundance. You must have an understanding that your consciousness of the presence is your supply. By repeating the sound that is in the name of God as a mantra, you're using a technique for manifesting as ancient as recorded history. I am particularly drawn to the form of meditation
called Japa. I know it works.
Step 10: Develop an attitude of gratitude for all that manifests into your life. Be thankful and filled with awe and appreciation, even if what you desire hasn't arrived yet. Even the darkest days of your life are to be looked on with gratitude. Everything coming from Source is on purpose. Be thankful while empowering your reconnection to that form from which you and everything else originated.
. . .
The energy that creates worlds and universes is within you.
It works through attraction and energy. Everything vibrates; everything
has a vibratory frequency. As St. Paul said, "God is able to provide
you with every blessing in abundance." Tune to God's frequency, and you
will know it beyond any and all doubt!
Copyright 2004 by Wayne W. Dyer. All rights reserved.
Wayne Dyer is the author of more than 20 books, including the New York Times Bestseller '10 Secrets for Success and Inner Peace.' For more information, visit his website, DrWayneDyer.com.
I found this very interesting. It's about living in the now.
Sunday, June 6, 2004 (6:41 AM)
Daily Quado:
A reader asks:
I understand living in the moment, but some people are so focused on the "now" that they neglect to plan for the future. What's the proper balance?
Quado, do you have an answer to this question?
Ah, yes, of course, of course.
The very question contains the answer, for the answer, of course, is in balance.
First a word about the power of now, of this moment, and why you are encouraged to leave the past and future and come here, into now. It is so important that you grasp this concept and grasp it fully.
By saying that the power is within now, this moment, it is saying that you must bring your mind out of regrets over the past and out of worries over the future and deal with life as it is now. You must see how things are, clearly. They are not the way you wanted them to be, this is true. They are not the way you were afraid they would be either. They are the way they are. And as they are, there is much in every moment that is precious, wonderful and also contains the seeds for a future which you would treasure, if only you could recognize it for what it is.
The future is just the next moment, the next heartbeat, the thing that was out there, one step ahead and now is here, now and now. Every moment, the future is becoming now. And when it arrives, when it is upon you, then it is now and then it also contains the seeds for the next moment.
The future is not some distant thing, unattainable. The future is not something to fear. But nor is the future something that will suddenly cure all of your ills and turn your life into a fairytale castle. The future is just like this moment, a moment full of promise, a moment full of opportunity, a moment full of challenge. And within it, within that future moment, as within this moment, you are you. And if you are full of joy and love and fulfillment, then the moment picks up this hue, this rosy color of joy. And if you are full of unhappiness and dissatisfaction, then you will carry that into the future moment as well.
Yes, it is important to think of the future, in terms of what you would like, for as we have discussed, your life is like a garden, and there are some things which take time to grow. You cannot expect an orchard to spring up overnight. Certain things can be planted and come to fruition in one season, but other things take time to grow.
And so, as you look at your life now, and as you look at the life you would like to have, you must consider this, take into account which things will take time to mature and grow into the sheltering tree, which things can be planted and enjoyed in a few months and what things just happen to be growing wild and can be picked right now. And you will want a balance of these in your life. You will want a balance of the sweet tomatoes of this one season and the enduring apple tree which can sustain you year over year. And of course, you will want the sweet roses, which blossom briefly and feed only your soul but return year after year to let their perfume waft out over your life. All of this is good. All of this is beautiful and a part of life.
But right now, you are where you are. Right now, there are weeds to be pulled. Right now, there are seeds to be planted for the coming season and a tree to be watered for the future, some years out. And the ability to do this, to pull those weeds and plant those seeds, to water that tree and to prune the roses to protect them from the winter storm, all of this exists right now.
This is the mix that you want. You want to balance your life so that you hold a clear understanding and acceptance of how things are now, without focusing on the past and filling yourself with regret or anger over what brought you to this place. Just a clear view of now. Right now, perhaps, the garden lies in shambles. Right now, the tree you so carefully nurtured has been uprooted and the garden is choked with the weeds of anger and regret. Right now, this is how things are.
So begin again. Clear those weeds; get them out of your life. Plant again a little seedling and nurture it carefully, using the knowledge you gained from before. Plant all the wonders of life in your garden. And as you clear those weeds, you will find that many of the plants have survived, some you had thought dead. And you will find that life has brought you other things as well; springing up in the destruction of what you had thought you wanted, suddenly are wonders beyond what you had hoped. Yes, they are there too, opening to life. And all you have to do to see them is to let the past go. Let it go and see what little green shoots there are in your garden right now. Care for these. Bring these to fruition. Nurture these.
And in this way, you are within now, acting now, responding now, being open to what truly is, and at the same time you are building a future, you are creating things now which will help you in your future. It is really quite simple, if you will but look at it in this way. And yes, it is all about balance. For there will come some days when you step out into your garden and the sun is shining so brightly, the birds are singing a song for you, asking you to stop all of this toil for just a moment and just be, just be in love, joy and peace. They ask you to lie down on the green grass and feel the earth singing underneath your body. They sing a song of beingness and connection, right now, and ask you to sing it with them.
Yes, this moment is full of that wonder. And in a balanced life, a fulfilling life, you can live this balance every day, every moment, taking the beautiful moments and mixing them in with those that contain the work you must do and the challenges you must face. You can learn to grasp the joy of the sky while walking across the parking lot to your job and just glancing up and watching a cloud drift across the sky. You can learn to place a rose on your desk, and then take a deep breath and let that rose center you throughout the day. You can learn to bring balance and joy into each moment, instead of grinding away your life in despair.
And as for the past? It is gone. It is no longer real. Let it go, let it go. Bring forward only the lessons you have learned, the strength you have picked up and the occasional flood of sweet memory. But as for the rest, let it go.
Embrace this moment. And embrace within this moment also those actions you take which are in your own best interest, those disciplines and activities which are building and creating the life you wish to have. Do what you can. Take the action which works for you, and then let it go. Then let it go out into the world now, in this moment, and build upon the other forces and energies which are there, those other things which are flowing toward you and of which you must remain aware.
Mix it all up. Be loose and flexible and observant. And when things do not turn out as you had hoped they would, just let go, and observe and respond.
You can learn to do this with joy and acceptance. You can learn to control your own response rather than trying to control the outside world and not yourself. Why expend so much effort trying to control everything except the one thing you might learn to control, which is yourself and your responses?
Even under the snow, the rose survives, fed by roots which sustain. You can be like this as well. You can learn to pull yourself down into your roots when you need to and then, when the sun shines again, and it always does, to blossom forth, sending out new little shoots to reach the sun and covering yourself with the little buds which will become the blossoms of beauty. It all happens now, but in the soil which you prepared before.
How would you like your life to be? What can you do right now which will prepare that soil? What can you plant right now which will grow into something beautiful? What wonderful little green shoot came up unexpectedly in your garden that you should be watering right now?
And as you do this, as you tend to that garden, remember to enjoy the process, to love the feel of the sun on your shoulders, the sweat dripping from your brow, the dirt under your fingernails. This is life. This working is good. The planting, the sowing, and the lying on the grass you have so carefully planted. All of this is good. All of this is life. Enjoy!
***
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Sunday, June 6, 2004 (6:41 AM)
Daily Quado:
A reader asks:
I understand living in the moment, but some people are so focused on the "now" that they neglect to plan for the future. What's the proper balance?
Quado, do you have an answer to this question?
Ah, yes, of course, of course.
The very question contains the answer, for the answer, of course, is in balance.
First a word about the power of now, of this moment, and why you are encouraged to leave the past and future and come here, into now. It is so important that you grasp this concept and grasp it fully.
By saying that the power is within now, this moment, it is saying that you must bring your mind out of regrets over the past and out of worries over the future and deal with life as it is now. You must see how things are, clearly. They are not the way you wanted them to be, this is true. They are not the way you were afraid they would be either. They are the way they are. And as they are, there is much in every moment that is precious, wonderful and also contains the seeds for a future which you would treasure, if only you could recognize it for what it is.
The future is just the next moment, the next heartbeat, the thing that was out there, one step ahead and now is here, now and now. Every moment, the future is becoming now. And when it arrives, when it is upon you, then it is now and then it also contains the seeds for the next moment.
The future is not some distant thing, unattainable. The future is not something to fear. But nor is the future something that will suddenly cure all of your ills and turn your life into a fairytale castle. The future is just like this moment, a moment full of promise, a moment full of opportunity, a moment full of challenge. And within it, within that future moment, as within this moment, you are you. And if you are full of joy and love and fulfillment, then the moment picks up this hue, this rosy color of joy. And if you are full of unhappiness and dissatisfaction, then you will carry that into the future moment as well.
Yes, it is important to think of the future, in terms of what you would like, for as we have discussed, your life is like a garden, and there are some things which take time to grow. You cannot expect an orchard to spring up overnight. Certain things can be planted and come to fruition in one season, but other things take time to grow.
And so, as you look at your life now, and as you look at the life you would like to have, you must consider this, take into account which things will take time to mature and grow into the sheltering tree, which things can be planted and enjoyed in a few months and what things just happen to be growing wild and can be picked right now. And you will want a balance of these in your life. You will want a balance of the sweet tomatoes of this one season and the enduring apple tree which can sustain you year over year. And of course, you will want the sweet roses, which blossom briefly and feed only your soul but return year after year to let their perfume waft out over your life. All of this is good. All of this is beautiful and a part of life.
But right now, you are where you are. Right now, there are weeds to be pulled. Right now, there are seeds to be planted for the coming season and a tree to be watered for the future, some years out. And the ability to do this, to pull those weeds and plant those seeds, to water that tree and to prune the roses to protect them from the winter storm, all of this exists right now.
This is the mix that you want. You want to balance your life so that you hold a clear understanding and acceptance of how things are now, without focusing on the past and filling yourself with regret or anger over what brought you to this place. Just a clear view of now. Right now, perhaps, the garden lies in shambles. Right now, the tree you so carefully nurtured has been uprooted and the garden is choked with the weeds of anger and regret. Right now, this is how things are.
So begin again. Clear those weeds; get them out of your life. Plant again a little seedling and nurture it carefully, using the knowledge you gained from before. Plant all the wonders of life in your garden. And as you clear those weeds, you will find that many of the plants have survived, some you had thought dead. And you will find that life has brought you other things as well; springing up in the destruction of what you had thought you wanted, suddenly are wonders beyond what you had hoped. Yes, they are there too, opening to life. And all you have to do to see them is to let the past go. Let it go and see what little green shoots there are in your garden right now. Care for these. Bring these to fruition. Nurture these.
And in this way, you are within now, acting now, responding now, being open to what truly is, and at the same time you are building a future, you are creating things now which will help you in your future. It is really quite simple, if you will but look at it in this way. And yes, it is all about balance. For there will come some days when you step out into your garden and the sun is shining so brightly, the birds are singing a song for you, asking you to stop all of this toil for just a moment and just be, just be in love, joy and peace. They ask you to lie down on the green grass and feel the earth singing underneath your body. They sing a song of beingness and connection, right now, and ask you to sing it with them.
Yes, this moment is full of that wonder. And in a balanced life, a fulfilling life, you can live this balance every day, every moment, taking the beautiful moments and mixing them in with those that contain the work you must do and the challenges you must face. You can learn to grasp the joy of the sky while walking across the parking lot to your job and just glancing up and watching a cloud drift across the sky. You can learn to place a rose on your desk, and then take a deep breath and let that rose center you throughout the day. You can learn to bring balance and joy into each moment, instead of grinding away your life in despair.
And as for the past? It is gone. It is no longer real. Let it go, let it go. Bring forward only the lessons you have learned, the strength you have picked up and the occasional flood of sweet memory. But as for the rest, let it go.
Embrace this moment. And embrace within this moment also those actions you take which are in your own best interest, those disciplines and activities which are building and creating the life you wish to have. Do what you can. Take the action which works for you, and then let it go. Then let it go out into the world now, in this moment, and build upon the other forces and energies which are there, those other things which are flowing toward you and of which you must remain aware.
Mix it all up. Be loose and flexible and observant. And when things do not turn out as you had hoped they would, just let go, and observe and respond.
You can learn to do this with joy and acceptance. You can learn to control your own response rather than trying to control the outside world and not yourself. Why expend so much effort trying to control everything except the one thing you might learn to control, which is yourself and your responses?
Even under the snow, the rose survives, fed by roots which sustain. You can be like this as well. You can learn to pull yourself down into your roots when you need to and then, when the sun shines again, and it always does, to blossom forth, sending out new little shoots to reach the sun and covering yourself with the little buds which will become the blossoms of beauty. It all happens now, but in the soil which you prepared before.
How would you like your life to be? What can you do right now which will prepare that soil? What can you plant right now which will grow into something beautiful? What wonderful little green shoot came up unexpectedly in your garden that you should be watering right now?
And as you do this, as you tend to that garden, remember to enjoy the process, to love the feel of the sun on your shoulders, the sweat dripping from your brow, the dirt under your fingernails. This is life. This working is good. The planting, the sowing, and the lying on the grass you have so carefully planted. All of this is good. All of this is life. Enjoy!
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The Charge of Chocolate
Humor by an unknown author
Listen to the words of the Mother of Chocolate;
who was of old called: Godiva, Ethel M., Sara Lee,
Nestle, Mrs. See, and by many other names:
Whenever you have one of those cravings,
once in a while and better it be when your checkbook is full,
then shall you assemble in a great public place
and bring offerings of money to the spirit of Me,
who is Queen of all Goodies.
In the mall shall you assemble,
you who have eaten all your chocolate and are hungry for more.
To you I shall bring Good Things for your tongue.
And you shall be free from depression.
And as a sign that you are truly free,
you shall have chocolate smears on your cheeks,
and you shall munch, nosh, snack, feast,
and make yummy noises all in my presence.
For mine is the ecstasy of phenylalanine,
and mine is also the joy on earth, yea, even into high orbit,
for my law is "melts in your mouth, not in your hand".
Keep clean your fingers, carry Wet Ones always,
let none stop you aside.
For mine is the secret that opens your mouth,
and mine is the taste that puts a smile on your lips
and comfy padding pounds on your hips.
I am the gracious Goddess who gives the gift of joy
onto the tummies of men and women.
Upon earth, I give knowledge of all things delicious,
and beyond death,well, I can't do much there. Sorry about that.
I demand only your money in sacrifice,
for behold, chocolate is a business,
and you have to pay for those truffles before you eat them.
Humor by an unknown author
Listen to the words of the Mother of Chocolate;
who was of old called: Godiva, Ethel M., Sara Lee,
Nestle, Mrs. See, and by many other names:
Whenever you have one of those cravings,
once in a while and better it be when your checkbook is full,
then shall you assemble in a great public place
and bring offerings of money to the spirit of Me,
who is Queen of all Goodies.
In the mall shall you assemble,
you who have eaten all your chocolate and are hungry for more.
To you I shall bring Good Things for your tongue.
And you shall be free from depression.
And as a sign that you are truly free,
you shall have chocolate smears on your cheeks,
and you shall munch, nosh, snack, feast,
and make yummy noises all in my presence.
For mine is the ecstasy of phenylalanine,
and mine is also the joy on earth, yea, even into high orbit,
for my law is "melts in your mouth, not in your hand".
Keep clean your fingers, carry Wet Ones always,
let none stop you aside.
For mine is the secret that opens your mouth,
and mine is the taste that puts a smile on your lips
and comfy padding pounds on your hips.
I am the gracious Goddess who gives the gift of joy
onto the tummies of men and women.
Upon earth, I give knowledge of all things delicious,
and beyond death,well, I can't do much there. Sorry about that.
I demand only your money in sacrifice,
for behold, chocolate is a business,
and you have to pay for those truffles before you eat them.
I've been quiet for the past few days haven't I? Oh well, I'm here now.
Ok, So I got to meet Karen and her friend Sherece. They are both lovely people. I was amazed at both of them. Karen is never at a loss for words which was so great. I think she could make anyone feel comfortable. AND my Gods she is amazing. I loved listening to her talk about religion. It was very interesting. Sherece is wonderful in her own right. I liked her approach on religion too. She had a really great energy about her. I will say though her being younger I'd thought she would have lasted longer than Karen and I. LOL
Now about the Movie! :-) Oh I so enjoyed it. I loved it and the guys were just fabulous... They were just so cute and well... I just enjoyed it so much. There were some glitches getting it going cause the AV guy was confused and Karen jumped right in and kept everyone's attention while it got straightened out. :-) No wondered she pleasured Colin Devlin so much. LOL
I was going to go back last night but Michael though said he didn't miss me was all over me when I got home. LOL So I spent the evening with him. We talked and watched tv together. He is so funny. I asked him if had had any ho's over and he was annoyed at me for asking. I asked him if he had had a drunken party while I was gone and he rolled his eyes. LOL He is so funny about things... LOL I would loved to have gone back but well, with the divorce so fresh Michael still feels a bit unsure. Friday night proved it to me. I'll have to do a lot of reassuring before I go to the UK. I don't want him to be afraid I won't come back. I don't want to lose the bond we have.
Ok, So I got to meet Karen and her friend Sherece. They are both lovely people. I was amazed at both of them. Karen is never at a loss for words which was so great. I think she could make anyone feel comfortable. AND my Gods she is amazing. I loved listening to her talk about religion. It was very interesting. Sherece is wonderful in her own right. I liked her approach on religion too. She had a really great energy about her. I will say though her being younger I'd thought she would have lasted longer than Karen and I. LOL
Now about the Movie! :-) Oh I so enjoyed it. I loved it and the guys were just fabulous... They were just so cute and well... I just enjoyed it so much. There were some glitches getting it going cause the AV guy was confused and Karen jumped right in and kept everyone's attention while it got straightened out. :-) No wondered she pleasured Colin Devlin so much. LOL
I was going to go back last night but Michael though said he didn't miss me was all over me when I got home. LOL So I spent the evening with him. We talked and watched tv together. He is so funny. I asked him if had had any ho's over and he was annoyed at me for asking. I asked him if he had had a drunken party while I was gone and he rolled his eyes. LOL He is so funny about things... LOL I would loved to have gone back but well, with the divorce so fresh Michael still feels a bit unsure. Friday night proved it to me. I'll have to do a lot of reassuring before I go to the UK. I don't want him to be afraid I won't come back. I don't want to lose the bond we have.
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
My new mantra
"All I wanna do is have a little fun before I die,"
All I wanna do is have some fun
I got a feeling I'm not the only one
All I wanna do is have some fun
I got a feeling I'm not the only one
All I wanna do is have some fun
I've got a feeling the party's just begun
All I wanna do is have some fun
"All I wanna do is have a little fun before I die,"
All I wanna do is have some fun
I got a feeling I'm not the only one
All I wanna do is have some fun
I got a feeling I'm not the only one
All I wanna do is have some fun
I've got a feeling the party's just begun
All I wanna do is have some fun
Today I was getting ready to go to work when it hit me.... It's Wednesday! Karen will be here in just a couple of days! I'm so excited. I know I sound like a broken record but... I am! I just can't wait! I've been thinking of the logistics of the whole thing. LOL I can't wait...
THEN I have to get ready to go see the WGer's from across the pond! I'm dying .... I want to be there now. :-) Hmmm... Got to get the logistics worked out on that too. Ack, got to get to the house and makes the reservation for the flight. I know it's morning arrival.. dang it... that's ok... I have books... I've got other books to read now. LOL Damn... I'm falling behind on my reading of books.
THEN I have to get ready to go see the WGer's from across the pond! I'm dying .... I want to be there now. :-) Hmmm... Got to get the logistics worked out on that too. Ack, got to get to the house and makes the reservation for the flight. I know it's morning arrival.. dang it... that's ok... I have books... I've got other books to read now. LOL Damn... I'm falling behind on my reading of books.
