Love you Lobo

Today was a hard day. Lobo was put to sleep. He had been having bad trouble with his hips for a while but he was at the point where he didn't want to even go outside. I know he couldn't be happy like that. It is so sad to let him go especially when his spirit was still strong.

As Lobo's body was being buried the wind picked up and the windchimes started going crazy. I did have to smile at that. Maybe it was his way of saying he's better now. Matt is having a really hard time with this. He wanted to sob on my shoulder but his dad was there so he composed himself and said I have to go. It broke my heart seeing that.

I'll miss Lobo and his protective spirit, his love for the family and his joy of playing.

Energy

I have been thinking about this for a bit now.

This will sound harsh but right now I don't care. It's how I feel and I hope it makes people think a little.

I've never regretting sending energy when someone asked for the help. I don't mind helping people when there is a real need because I can understand why they ask so this isn't directed at them. For that fact I'll always be there to help when the need is real. What I'm on about here is that people go onto lists and ask for energy for some of the most petty stuff I've ever seen in my life. Those are the ones I don't have time or the desire to help. There have been requests for energy that are just down right dumb. Yes I said it dumb. Excuse me but use your own energy and don't ask others to send energy for something that you can do yourself. Little itty bitty medical things have fixes, so use them. Stop being a energy vamp. So what you feel a little down. Figure out whats causing it and try to fix the problem, stop using energy from people as a bandaide. Oh and my favorite comment, Grow the fuck up.

Yes I'm annoyed that people suck energy from people like this. Unfortunately not everyone is aware of energy vamps like these. So they send energy to them.

*screams*

Ok, I feel a little better.

Signs, signs, everywhere there'er signs

Things going through my head.

Why is it that when stating an opinion people think that they need to correct you?

If you don't want opinions don't ask questions. Pretty simple thing.

Don't try to convince people they are wrong because you disagree.

Because you don't understand another person's belief don't try to tell them how wrong they are to believe what they do.


So where am I going with this? Pretty simple, it has becomes obvious to me that I'm tired of everything. Swim fish, swim in your own stream and don't ask me if it's right.

Yes I'm rebeling, on many different levels. My hackles are up and all I can figure is Mercury being Retro. It's nothing to do with my personal life, things are going well. My serious side has gone quiet and will stay that way. There will be no more serious stuff out of me, not for public comsumption anyway. Bitter feelings? No not at all. I'm fine on that count. I'm just annoyed is all and I'm sure I'll get over it. lol

I've been feeling annoyances all day. Simple things that shouldn't matter, have. Of course some things were only annoyances cause I didn't want to do it. I really didn't want to be at work today but I had stuff I had to get done. I find that some people just annoy me because they are who they are. I shouldn't be like that really, but I guess I just know they are going to get under my skin. These are the times I'm not safe to be around people. Not because of what I might do to them but the things I hold in and let fester. It's not good for me, yet I still do it. lol Got to wonder why.

No excitement for me today. I had a visit from one of the police guys to pick up some software I ordered for them. I pulled some leaves out of the skimmer for the pond. Fed the fish and petted some of them. My underwear are driving me nuts. *sighs* They look so cute but they wear terrible.

Oh well that's it for now.

Weekend at Georgia's

Last night I was having a nice dream when a voice started coming in. I finally realized something was up and woke up. Outside I hear mens voices. I'm thinking what the heck is that? So I peak out my window and there is something going on in the neighbors woods. So I watch, flashlights going all over the place, headlights from a car pointed into the woods. I finally hear the first clear words. "GET UP! I SAID GET UP!" So I get the phone dail 911 and say do ya'll have someone on *insert name of my road*? The 911 dude says uh yes they are searching for someone. I said I think they found him. I said thank you and hung up. Then the police go all around my neighbors house checking it out. Tomorrow I'll call my connections with the police and ask them to find out what was going on. Did I mention this was 0530 hrs? Yeah too early for stupid criminals to be out and about. That was my excitement for the month. Nothing ever happens around here so it is unusual.

Today I went out and played in the fire. Fire is one of my favorite things. So I got to burn some stuff and had fun. Though I cut 3 of my fingers on my left hand and it hurts. Tom drove by with the on again off again girlfriend. She was apparently embarrassed that I saw them. Well duh, I'm outside working in the yard. I really don't care anymore.

So back to work tomorow, I have to clean the office. I was cutting up boxes on Friday. It looks like Tornado Georgia went through. lol