Up in the Air

I know I haven't posted in a while. I really haven't had much to say I guess. This must be one of those down phases I go through. I planned on going to the Border's Pagan meeting but now I don't know if I even want to go. Actually that's not true. I don't want to go. Today has been a weird day for me. I have needs and I don't even know what they are.

I don't know what direction to take and I feel like I'm just hanging. It's not uncomfortable but I feel like I should be doing something. It's almost one of those what is life for feelings.

It's not that I'm sad, because I'm not. It's more that I worry I'll make a wrong choice. So I worry.

Things like where will I go when I move from this house, what kind of job do I want, you know things like that.

It's about time

Yeah, it is... It's about time I posted something here.

first things first. I'm tired and I wanted to sleep in a little and of course the universe felt it wasn't necessary. Lets say I'm cranky now because I wanted to sleep some. This happened yesterday too and yesterday was a fubar day. Oh it was nothing serious but stressful.

I'll write more in a little bit. I've got to get to work. ;-)


Today I feel like another piece of the puzzle has fallen into place yet I still can't see the image before me.

I feel weird today too. Nothing bad just weird. Well there has been nothing that I'm excited about in the past few days. Yesterday started out with potential but then crashed and burned. That could be why I feel so off today. Not the whole day but the majority of it, just totally off. I'm not unhappy though.

I had these great thoughts yesterday morning and all of a sudden everything broke loose and I forgot all of them. lol I've been thinking that I'm starting to feel the need for a ritual. I know that a ritual doesn't have as much significance for me as it does others but there is a pull for some reason. I'll just have to figure out what kind of ritual is needed.

let's see what else is going on.... Michael got back from Las Vegas safe and sound. He seems to have enjoyed what all he saw but there was so wound up when he got home. He talked non-stop and even called Matt so Matt could come pick up the present Michael bought him. He was so proud of his gifts he bought. He bought me a Painted Pony. It's the Carosel Horse. I love it and he was thrilled. He got yelled at a couple of times at the Mirage just because he was standing where he was told he could stand. The stupid drink girls chewed him out. So Sean went and found security and chewed the security guy out. lol Security said Michael could stand where the dumbasses told him he couldn't stand. I'm still debating writing a nasty gram to the Mirage for it.