I went to bed last night with an intent to find an answer to something that has been weighting on my mind. Last night was a bust as I can't remember what I dream. I vaguely have a feeling but that's it. I'll try again tonight.

Today is a raining day and going to be like that the whole day. It's dark and no the Sun hasn't kept it's promise today. *grins* It will be easy to slip into a bit of a depression with this darkness.

I feel the need to pull back from everyone...

Oh wait I remember looking down at a top I had on and my nipples were hard. LOL No I have no idea why. Sorry about that it was just something I remembered. I was hoping it would jog my memory if I started typing it.

Anyway, I feel like I should pull back from people to try and see things more clearly. The problem is that it's not helping. Nothing is getting clearer.

I had lunch with Tom yesterday and he was in the office for a couple of hours. It was actually pleasant for once. I didn't feel anything for him. It was just like having lunch with a work colleague.

What lessons do I need to learn before I can move on? I'm just not sure. Going with what is given to me is the only thing I can do.