Monday Monday So Good to Be

Yes it's Monday and I'm alright. Other than the headache I have that is from allergies I'm guessing. I was bad and looked at Tom's old phone and saw messages he sent Dallas. He wrote sweet things to her. Things he had never written to me. This does tell me that he hasn't loved me in that way in a long time. I don't think either of us has truly loved each other that way, maybe never for me. I just don't know anymore. It's not that I'm sad or angry but just... I guess surprised that we both went through this marriage with nothing more than friendship with benefits. I want to give the friendship. The benefits are gone for him though. lol