I figured out what about that song that has always drawn me. Just the simple part of "When I was young, I never needed anyone". I didn't. I didn't give a shit, played with emotions because I had none invested and figured they didn't either. I wish now I didn't have emotions invested in this. Life would be much easier. I'm at the point where I would like to just close myself off to life, to emotions. I guess I'm tired of the pain.