I don't know...
where to start.
I'm highly stressed and I'd break down if I thought it help. Today the boys and I went to se mom and dad. It took dad about 20 minuts to come and greet us. It's unusual but I knew what he was doing. He said hey to the boys then found me. He hugged me and cried. You don't know how much it tore me up to feel his pain. He apologized for crying and I told him not to worry about it. It was ok to cry and don't worry. He said I tried to compose myself but I can't. I again told him it was ok and I understood. He apologized again and said I didn't think I'd be so emotional over this. I hugged him and said it's ok and you have been told something really huge, it's understandable. He said he had to wipe his eyes so I gave him a moment and then stood behind him rubbing his shoulders and sending him strength. I've never felt anything like it before. It felt like he was going to pull me through his skin.
How would I feel if I were told I had cancer? I don't know... he was very depressed today. Friday he sounded strong. Today he just.... was having a hard time with it. monday he goes in for a scan to see if it's spread. We'll know more then.
I gave so much that I have this killer headache now. It started to get better but is back now. heck i don't know... it comes and goes.
I'm highly stressed and I'd break down if I thought it help. Today the boys and I went to se mom and dad. It took dad about 20 minuts to come and greet us. It's unusual but I knew what he was doing. He said hey to the boys then found me. He hugged me and cried. You don't know how much it tore me up to feel his pain. He apologized for crying and I told him not to worry about it. It was ok to cry and don't worry. He said I tried to compose myself but I can't. I again told him it was ok and I understood. He apologized again and said I didn't think I'd be so emotional over this. I hugged him and said it's ok and you have been told something really huge, it's understandable. He said he had to wipe his eyes so I gave him a moment and then stood behind him rubbing his shoulders and sending him strength. I've never felt anything like it before. It felt like he was going to pull me through his skin.
How would I feel if I were told I had cancer? I don't know... he was very depressed today. Friday he sounded strong. Today he just.... was having a hard time with it. monday he goes in for a scan to see if it's spread. We'll know more then.
I gave so much that I have this killer headache now. It started to get better but is back now. heck i don't know... it comes and goes.
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OH NO! Georgia, I am so very sorry! If you want to talk, please don't hesitate to call me at 757 486 2061 noon to midnight. It's so odd - Garry is going in tomorrow for his CT as well, but he won't mind out the results until NEXT Monday, so don't be surprised if it takes them a little longer to give you and your family concrete news. Will they do a PET Scan as well? Seriously, if you need an ear or a shoulder, I'm here for you.
(((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))) Georgia, I wish had the words to comfort you, your Dad and the rest of the family are in my thoughts.
Love
Aud xxx
I'm so sorry. I can remember exactly where I was standing when I got the news about my mom. I was devasted and felt so lost.....
You know how to get a hold of me if you need anything...
You're one of those rare souls I feel truly safe with, I imagine it's much the same with your dad....I'm here 24/7 should you need me....or my shoulder.....or someone to tell you to stop touching Anna or I'll stop this car *hugs*
Energy's en route
XOXOXO
Shonna
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