Well it's 17 days until my divorce is final. I think I've finally hit the loss stage... Now it's time to get my head straight. My sister said that I should think about selling real estate. Her husband is a developer and has his own real estate company. He would help me get started. So that will be something that I do some serious thinking on... For that fact I might ask one of the readers if it seems like a good thing for me to get into. I think it would be a good thing for me to get into but well it's definitely new territory for me. I could get my life going with that and then Tom would have nothing to hold over me.
See one of the things that Tom has thought for a long time was I hadn't contributed monetarily for, I guess, the whole marriage. He made the comment that I hadn't work since before we moved into the new house. I said oh yes I did. My income is what helped us get this house not to mention the first house too. I worked for a year after we finished building the new house. Then he said I want you to work with me. SO I agreed. Then in 2000 when we almost split up, I went out and got another job but before I could start he begged me to quit. Funny how he forgot those things.
One of the things I find interesting is that for us to be together almost 24 hours a day, we weren't communicating. I can't say it was only him. I have my secrets but well it's a Cancerian thing. I like to keep my secrets close. I don't share them easily with anyone. I'm getting a bit better...
Oh, I want to talk about the flowers thing. The fact that Tom never sent me flowers then says oh I didn't think you liked them. Well, I've been thinking. He told me that he didn't send flowers because it made the not mean anything. Sending a single rose on a very special occasion was much better. I got a single rose, when I was pregnant with my first son. I guess the second one was special. I guess the anniversary wasn't special. I guess none of the time we spent together as a couple was special. Interesting... I thought it was. Heck I gave him flowers several times thinking he would get the hint that even if he didn't like them that I did. It didn't work btw. LOL He said I thought you didn't like them. Well, first off I was never given the chance to say I liked them or not. He told me up front he didn't send flowers. Then I find out that he sent Dallas (new girlfriend) flowers several times. That hurt and he couldn't understand it. I know not all guys are dense but how the heck could a man not see how that would hurt? He keeps falling back to I thought you didn't like flowers. Yeah, and it snowed in Jamaica.. LOL
Let's see what else... Oh it rained most of the day and I went outside and danced in the rain... I just love doing that. Hopefully it will rain tomorrow and I can go dance naked in the rain. Oh don't look at me like that! The deck on the back of the house is very private. LOL It's a good cleansing ritual. It will lift your spirits too. That is unless you are in the southern hemisphere... Then it may be a tad cold to dance naked in the rain. ;-)
See one of the things that Tom has thought for a long time was I hadn't contributed monetarily for, I guess, the whole marriage. He made the comment that I hadn't work since before we moved into the new house. I said oh yes I did. My income is what helped us get this house not to mention the first house too. I worked for a year after we finished building the new house. Then he said I want you to work with me. SO I agreed. Then in 2000 when we almost split up, I went out and got another job but before I could start he begged me to quit. Funny how he forgot those things.
One of the things I find interesting is that for us to be together almost 24 hours a day, we weren't communicating. I can't say it was only him. I have my secrets but well it's a Cancerian thing. I like to keep my secrets close. I don't share them easily with anyone. I'm getting a bit better...
Oh, I want to talk about the flowers thing. The fact that Tom never sent me flowers then says oh I didn't think you liked them. Well, I've been thinking. He told me that he didn't send flowers because it made the not mean anything. Sending a single rose on a very special occasion was much better. I got a single rose, when I was pregnant with my first son. I guess the second one was special. I guess the anniversary wasn't special. I guess none of the time we spent together as a couple was special. Interesting... I thought it was. Heck I gave him flowers several times thinking he would get the hint that even if he didn't like them that I did. It didn't work btw. LOL He said I thought you didn't like them. Well, first off I was never given the chance to say I liked them or not. He told me up front he didn't send flowers. Then I find out that he sent Dallas (new girlfriend) flowers several times. That hurt and he couldn't understand it. I know not all guys are dense but how the heck could a man not see how that would hurt? He keeps falling back to I thought you didn't like flowers. Yeah, and it snowed in Jamaica.. LOL
Let's see what else... Oh it rained most of the day and I went outside and danced in the rain... I just love doing that. Hopefully it will rain tomorrow and I can go dance naked in the rain. Oh don't look at me like that! The deck on the back of the house is very private. LOL It's a good cleansing ritual. It will lift your spirits too. That is unless you are in the southern hemisphere... Then it may be a tad cold to dance naked in the rain. ;-)
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